Updated:  September 16th, 2023

 

This website is from the early days of OSAGWI and is reflective of the

beginning appearance.  It does not look like the last incarnation only

because that got so watered down. The military Gulflink keeps changing

hands and URL's to hide it. There eventual goal is to delete it outright.

Once I die off then this website fades, they win, and it all will vanish. Forgotten

chapter of America. Until then, this website is a reminder of those forgotten

vets betrayal by America.

DOD sits on a vast amount of records that the bulk have been reclassified Top

Secret to be hidden for 50 years. Under the guise of WMD clause in the

national security records review system. Originally the records were listed

and reviewed like this:

 

1995 - 20,000,000 Gulf War military records declassified
1996 - 6,000,000 files given to OSAGWI to put on website

1996 - 1,700,000 files are medically relevant
1997 - 42,943 put up on gulflink.osd.mil website

There should be FULL public disclosure, and we have the right to know 

what really happened in Iraq from 1990 to present. Only, America has

no interest in the truth or the rights of her veterans. This is a shameful

chapter of our history that ended up sending troops back and back under

false pretenses then betrayed them as well. We even protested sending

the troops in 2003, proven right for doing so, and still glossed over as the

occupation of Iraq went sour. Now a 2 trillion eye sore that America wants

to forget. There is no justice for the vets that served there then or now. There

wont till everyone connected to this has been dead a long time. The truth

buried not for national security, but economics, and the millions of lives

it destroyed over oil prices.

September 16th, 2023

Been trying to actually interact with the Sec of VA Denis McDonough since Feb 2022
and it wasnt till September 7th it happened. At 8:10am in front of 810 Vermont street.
Got out of his vehicle, secret service escorting him. Oddly, sees me and Ed Bryan -
walks over to us. I didnt pour it on because so far he was being pleasant. But, I did
tell him what had gone on the last year and trying to interact with him. So he put my
name, number, and email in his cell phone. Took pictures with Ed and I. Then left.
Im sure he deleted me from his phone just as fast.

       
                        

Alot happened those two days in DC. Ed Bryan and I had teamed up once more like
the old days. So we got to witness things and compare notes.

Right off the bat they switch up the executive discussion to 9am. Deputy Sec Guy
Kiyokawa addressed the RAC. Was about 30 minutes. Really wasnt sweeping or
even interesting. Then came the photo shoot with public affairs. Denise Nichols did
manage to talk them into a shot with him and the veterans in the room. So I ended
up in a committee photo with him. Then talked to him afterwards. Another blow off.

First thing that got me. No water bottles by the doors. 99 outside and it was 77
in the room. When asked, Karen Block said they didnt have money for it. Really?
Its gotten so bad they cant spring $10 or less for water? Yet, later they could give
out 8x10 prints of the photos with Deputy Sec Guy to everyone? Hmmm.

It was lively on the 7th. But, frustrating. the DOD serum repository flat lied about
the HIV 1988, 1989 cryo samples. Because up till recently they claimed written
consent had to attained. That was the major hurdle for 20 years to my pre post
blood sample DNA sequencing. Amplify the red blood cell DNA left in the serum 
for sequencing. Was livid with them about the bluff. Took it up with Mr. Darpa after
his presentation. Feasible? He agreed.

Ed and I left to head over to the Senate. New game, we dont do walkins. I had tried
to schedule 2 weeks out with Bernie Sanders, Laura took the call. Wrote the scheduler
who ignored me. Just like I told Laura he would do. We show up, inflexible. Personally,
Bernie long forgot the promises he made at the CDC conference in 1999 in Atlanta.
His most recent acts have been to turn away GWI legislation. Cost too much. But,
this is the new Senate where they just dont have to deal with the public any more.
No more walkins is purely for the wealthy, and keep the poor at bay. Sell outs.

The evening VES session with the RAC is sad. About 6 of us in the room asking to
speak over and over. I think 53 were online, with about 6 pushing to speak. I really
got to dominate this portion. My name came up alot after that. But, I dont think the
committee got the points. The trap they are in with ORD, PP, OMB. But, it goes well
enough that several of us are invited to dinner afterwards. At least that was social
and no one got ugly.

Day 2 was much more frustrating. So much effort being put into the GWI IDC 10
code update with the CDC. There was so much more that could have been done.
The committee slowed to a crawl and it just got annoying. Even the mention of using
the NAS which really outraged me. Did the public comments and the event closed 
on a cold note. Chairman went cold too. Figures, pressure is off when the mikes
go off. 

I could say so much more, but Im still really tired. Built a scrapbook of the 4 days
in DC. Hit all the usual haunts. Ed and I got familiar once more with all the areas
we used to run around to. Arlington as well. But, it had been so hot all that time
that it took some of the fun out. Most of the mall area is in repair. Lincoln memorial
was all tore up. The whole area had a run down vibe. Union Station was just down
right depressing. No one was in the grass at the mall in front of the Capital. It was
empty in front of the White house with a much bigger fence.

Then Saturday as we are heading home the Military Times springs a OIG report that
Gulf war veterans have been over paid $5 million. Really? Because I dont even know
anyone that got a 3.317 rating decision. This is a insulting fabrication. To demonize
us. Sec of VA knew this talking to Ed and me, Deputy Sec of VA, VA CMO, certain
committee members, and others knew Thursday. Made sure we didnt have a chance
to dispute it during the meeting.

All said and done, I think I upstaged the show. My 2nd big meeting with them in one
year that I played a big part they wanted to play down. In February it was the powerpoint
and this one the multiple times to speak during the VES. I left a a mark. But, VA isnt
about progress so this was a huge let down afterwards. No real progress. Like with
publications and statistical reports. The pre post genome project. 3.317. PACT act
issues.I really felt cheated heading back to Texas.

At least for now I have a fresh feel for DC, and the old haunts. What has changed and
what hasnt. 26 years of this. Just like the old days in some ways when we confronted
the IOM Gulf War treatment meetings in 2000. 2 years before the RAC even began. This
has been a VERY long run for me. Still just as frustrating as ever.

August 22nd, 2023

Been busy on Facebook despite the fact VA has not taken care of the hackers that
still haunt there webpage. Little trolls sitting out there that would crumble up into a
ball if they every ran into one of there victims. Teens and weirdos. Sad.

I called the RAC about a week before they posted the meeting in the Federal Register.
The committee had been silent since February, nothing. But, I was on top of this and
put it out there for the others.

Sec of VA Denis McDonough is still dodging me. Full coward. All the while he goes
on playing up the PACT act and VA like he is doing us favors. He is not. He knows the
PACT act is failing on a huge scale and is fine with that. Terminal get help. The rest
of us get squat unless your OIF from 2033 to present. Even then its not going to find
much on purpose. No real evidence with the Toxic Exposure exams.

Im active and all over this. Hammering News.va.gov all I can. But, media is state
controlled and they dont write about grumpy vets. Only pro-government fluff. All is
well in America, we never wrong our vets.

All the while my near death experience in the civilian ER is being punished. I got the
visit authorized, and yet VA wont pay the bill. So after 90 days Scott and White is trying
to slip me the $14,000 bill Tri-west wont pay. Adverse benefits issue my ass. I gave
them the approval authorization code over and over. Im positive that Sec of VA Denis
McDonough is behind this. Cripple me with a huge bill after turning me away from
a walkin that would not have cost me a dime. Punish me for using VA medical care.

VA keeps getting worse for me each month. Problem after problem not being solved.
A heart issue building on me they wont address. Wait me out, let me die. Keep me
from primary care just long enough for natural causes to take over. I cant get seen
when I need to. Prove the PVC's Im throwing are real and by the hour. My monitor
shows that. Sent in proof. Cant go the ER, they wont pay the bill when they should. 

Where is the justice in any of this? Where is Congress? Where is the IG? It should
NOT be this hard for a combat veteran.

June 25th, 2023

When you run off every person left that tried to save the system, all you have
after that are the people who made it worse. Thats what we have across capital
hill and VA.

I made a huge stink about the RAC in February. The meeting was a disaster and
it showed in Stars and Stripes article about them. They wanted so much to pretend
that meeting never took place. For 30 days they said nothing on the RAC website
till I spoke up. Then few hours later, poof. That material was up. Only to have the RAC
website go stagnant from there on. June 25th, no new public meetings listed or had
happened that I knew about. 4 months and silence? No agenda?

So I wrote the committee and Sec of VA to this effect. That I guess they went back
to the GWVITF secret meetings of 2010 format. Decide policy without the vets.
Even worse, the NGWRC knows about and is in on it. Silence. Crickets.

Oh, Sec of VA Denis McDonough knows me. As they had to contact Waco VAMC
to get me into care since walkins arent allowed and they dont pay for ER visits when
you go there. Katie was NOT amused having to call me and schedule me the next
day to see the doctor. The clinic deeply resented I once again circumvented protocol
and policy. But, my heart condition is very real to me and they just want to wait me
out long enough for it to go terminal. Opps, autopsy showed this - how did we miss 
that?

My ideas for the Toxic Exposure Pathology Center have merit. Ridding Walkins did
NOT improve VA care. In fact, when I went in this week to the Waco VAMC the parking
lot by the clinic was almost empty. Plenty of spaces. Waiting room and labs had like
one person in there. Was like that much of the day. Oh yes, this is working real well
for VA turning away Walkins. Plenty of time for others things. No waiting, because your
not in line any more.

House and Senate are completely corrupt. VA knows they wont look into them. Service
groups gave up. IG gave up. GAO gave up. VA is free and clear of oversight. Which Sec
of VA Denis McDonough certainly has run with. Media? State controlled now. They only
publish what VA will let them or cut them off. Groups like the RAC cave into VA rather than
risk black balling like me. Didnt make them better.

Google is still pretending Gulflink.org doesnt exist, claiming they cant find the file on
the server. Total lies. Google has become a puppet of the rich, cutting out content that
makes the rich look bad. Monopoly, censorship.

So Im struggling with my neurology and healthcare trying to make sense of the dam
muscle spasms - tremors. Vegas nerve? Long Covid? How do you prove it? VA does
not want to even try. POTS, good luck proving that.

My doctor does not think Im a idiot, as I make him look good. On paper much of my
pathology is against the trends. So he doesnt have to work hard at the parts that
are non standard. Follow protocol till something weird gets me. Because VA is not
about being creative. Follow the letter of the law and push the vet out. Which is why
we need a pathology center with open minds, take a real chance. Nope, cant have that.

26 years, Im not stupid. Been at the fore front. People can say other wise till the
cows come home, other wise VA would have not allowed my Powerpoint presentation
to the committee in February. Boy did they shut down on that one.

You people need me, not the other way around. Im still trying, give me credit for that.
Even locally, with these meth heads right next to me trying to trip everyone up and
pit them against each other. Every where I go are assholes making sure than nothing
gets done, and they plan to take everyone with them. Bluff and BS. I on the other
hand stay focused on my projects and laugh at the stupidity Im dealing with here and
in DC. Boy, do you people not get me at all.

My root cellar is almost complete, and its 17 tons of complications coming to a end.
Its practical in this global warming climate no one wants to fix. You know what? I can
fix that too. Put containers on all aircraft that spray a fine film of inert dust molecules
out the back of the engines. Couple of weeks and the seeding will drop global air temps
2 degrees. Water vapor con trails do that now. Take it further. Create some great sun
sets too. Water vapor isnt enough on its own. But, 3,000+ flights a day puts alot up
there all the time.

Better off without me? Think again. Put me out front and demand they listen? I will
get results. Right now, nothing in DC. Silence is consent. I want to change that. The
people refusing me have got nothing. Ive got dozens of ideas, and experience.

April 24th, 2023

This is the service groups failing us in the extreme. Sucked up to Sec of VA
Denis McDonough and look what Skeletor stuck it to you.

With a walkin, you were at least seeing your regular doctor about your issues.
Now, surprises come up your starting with a stranger every time. Save cost?
Yourve created chaos and caused greater long term expenses and deaths.

This isnt managed care. Your doing all you can to drive veterans into insured
civilian care with your bloated $296 billion nightmare. What? A bigger golden
parachute for Skeletor when they make him resign?

I had a taste of this April 21st with a walkin gone very wrong. They could not
wait to turn me away at the Waco VAMC for anything I begged for. We dont
want you. That really came across. Forced me to the Baylor ER down the road
where I spent the bulk of the day fighting pneumonia among other things. Had this
since Monday and after 5 days there was nothing left of me. Only, its on Waco
to follow this up and Waco VA shuts down for the weekend. Nothing.

Try to get to the ER in Temple Saturday and of all things a cop in McGregor
decides it time to revenue hunt a stop sign on a far back road while Im coughing
up a storm telling him Im on the way to the ER. Guy is some kind of weird anti
social jerk amused at my delimna and mocks me. Gives me a ticket rather than
a warning. Unless I let him add to my expenses with a EMS call on top of this?
He was only offering scenarios that added zeros to my cost. I get a sadist on a
back road that predates the sick and dying for money?

Get into the ER, and doctor hears the fluid in my lungs. They up the dosage and
'type at pharmacy. First pill was like being hit by a baseball bat. But, at least
it starts working quickly. Drive around McGregor on the way back knowing its a
shitty little speed trap. Even the people at the Temple ER desk mock the McGregor
cops as gold diggers.

Couple of days and fluids dropped off. Only, this is all a dead end now. Ive heart
and lung damage from the pneumonia that needs documenting. What is the recovery
method in all this? Im not being managed, on my own guessing what to do and
no one to talk too? Because urgent care is isolated to the ER and the VA clinic wont
see me for months in advance. Nothing in between? Send a email to My healthe 
website only to find they send short emails saying "we forwarded your message".
Didnt put me in any where, didnt actually help me?

Nothing about the last last week was less than a living hell, and at every step
I found cold indifferent people sort of enjoying this scenario. More like predatory
behavior and ways to make people spend more money for less. They all seemed
quite eager to create more expensive situations since its not them needing care.
All the while, all my hard work with the Waco VAMC the last two years has been
washed away, and rest to zero. Im back in over my head.

This is all you Sec of VA Denis McDonough? You suck as a human being. Youve
made VA medical care costly, bloated, and much harder to access. Come a year
from now you can GUARANTEE people will demand your resignation. Once youve
screwed VA so badly it implodes. Top down economics? Try DRACONIAN!!!!!

I know you have a disaster on your hands and this ends badly. Just sad how many
have to die now to prove it. There is blood on your hands you ghoul. You will cover this
up like most criminals. But, not till taking it all with you. Which is in motion.

April 10th, 2023

For weeks Ive been hammering VA on the News.va.gov website in its public
comments. Trying to get points across that the media wont help with. American
media has completely turned on veterans themselves so they can grovel at
the governments feet. Play up the PACT act, and report all is well when its not.
Really hammered the War Horse Symposium webpage.

Put the word out about the War Horse Symposium thinking that there would
be some kind of veteran showing. Only, I found out the whole day was a total
shut out of the virtual crowd. This was a prechoosen, hands elected group of
people that would put on a dog and pony show. They would not alienate the
VA and DOD folks attending. Jon Stewart would go passive, very mild to protect 
his select group. No one online like me was given a chance all day. You could
not even tell I was there. Not even a chat bar or attendance bar. I was though.
Fuming at the arrogance.

I found Sec of VA Denis McDonough offensive at best. His body language and his
contempt was all to obvious to me. He had nothing to worry about. No one there
was going to ask him any hard questions or grill him. I asked a Q&A about
the need for a Toxic Exposure Pathology Center and did a screenshot of the
page to prove I asked. Nothing. They pointed out Patricia Kime in the audience
in front of him, and I emailed it to her. Nothing. All is well, nothing to worry about. 
Maybe for those there, not for us online.

Maybe the War Horse was something a while back, this one was a joke about
what it offered. It was a very small monopoly trying to protect its position and
not upset its over lords. 9 hours of nothing. Even less so, it was a waste of my 
time and 5 gigs of my internet. Bandwidth I needed for other things.

When I think of the War Horse in the future, I will always equate it with this
photo of Sec of VA Denis McDonough. Tented hands scowling at people.
They were there to make him look good. Grovel. Keep vets like me from
asking him questions he has dodged for months. If someone said that there
was a problem, not here. All the while I hammered the News.va.gov website
webpage about this event and it would not help vets - it didnt.

Thanks for nothing.

              

March 22nd, 2023

So very much happened this last month. But, with Google and VA blocking
this website - posting her is pointless. Put the attention into Facebook which
hasnt really been my buddy either.

March 6th the RAC took down all evidence the Feb 7,8,9th meeting took place. 
It stayed this way till March 16th when I called this out. Within hours they had
the meeting materials up on there website. They were testing to see who was
paying attention.

VA had been posting PACT act articles right and left at News.va.gov of which
I wrote volumes in every single public comments. they tried to block me at first
and found out Im real quick to go the IG. After that I got out but the delays would
last days some times. I knew the more I posted and posted key words the search
engines would pick this up. Ide be every where eventually even if its Kilroy style.

They held a PACT act event March 18th 2023 here in Waco. They made sure not
to post it any where till 4 days before the meeting. Then the media had a limited
output 2 days before. None contacted me about it. I was excluded. Killeen Daily
herald, Waco Tribune, Channel 10, Channel 44 who knew me wanted to write a
pro government article about how well things are going. Everything is fine, it
all works, run and apply, no loopholes or problems. Garbage media.

Ive no doubt any more the Sec of VA Denis McDonough is playing dirty and made
sure I was excluded. You can bet your ass there is a inter office memo to William
Negron in Temple asking him to do things this way. They cant have any negative
veteran opinions, and comments effecting the event.

I have been distracted in all this with Hackers on the VA Facebook page, a local
drug ring messing with my neighborhood, and medical problems that Im trying to
resolve as my new claim goes forward. I finally accepted the possibility of a TBI
injury with over a dozen extreme moments I had written off. The WRIISC in DC
was pretty sure of this and Im in a TBI study now. It would explain the very specific
types of problems, recall, migraines, tinnitus, and such over the last 3 decades.
My overt disdain towards PTSD, and this is keeping me from dealing with this.
I wont accept PTSD, but Im fighting TBI needlessly.

Im learning more and more about the problematic PACT act issues like the QTC
contractor setting up C&P exams. People think they are scammers, and for 4 days
so did I. Would not answer the phone, didnt know the numbers. Talked to them
Sunday morning and got scheduled. Only to find they are also hindered by the
hackers placing false claims. They have to screen those out. Person is over
worked trying to make up for the back log.

Hackers took over the VA Facebook cite. Used my name and image to try and
scam others. Went after that. Then there badgering commentary in Facebook
to drive veterans off. Took it up with Sec of VA, and he passed me to Media
Relations who said tough luck. Well, after a week VA Facebook posted a Identity
verification badge to help with this. I was getting person after person removed.
Fakers like this one teenager from Yemen posing as Gen Rainey. People with
zero friends and zero followers or content. Called them out. Ugh.

At every step, Im learning more and more about the current problems between
VBA and VHA with the PACT act. Because Im living it. Without the Toxic Exposure
Pathology Center I cant get that added physical evidence that would really help
my claim. Its all on me to make what there is work by sheer will power and
self reporting which is useless.Ive got 2 exams pending shortly and Im sure they
wont be of much help. C&P isnt on my side and damn sure wont explain any
problems or loopholes - they arent allowed to volunteer. Both with be visual exams
and what I add to that. Ugh....

Im all over the place saying Sec of VA Denis McDonough as a staunch critic of
him. Local media is cowering from this, not wanting to upset VA or executive
branch. I really feel Im dealing with veteran haters in the local media. People
who want to see veterans fail. The odd thing is 3 of them claim to be veterans
and from what I can tell - they resent others more than want to help them.

The end result is things take a decade to surface rather than now. I will be vindicated
later on for what happened now. But for now, Im going forward trying to make a highly
flawed law some how work for me. VA doesnt care, and wants to play dirty.

Millions will miss out, but how will we know if this is all being kept a secret. VA is
pretending the only person complaining is me, and if they ignore me long enough
I will just go away. Only Im ramping up rather than down. These people really dont
get me at all. I guess my 122 IQ is a sore spot with very mediocre people who
seem to only live to oppose ideas.

March 7th, 2023

VA chose to ignore my presentation to the RAC, and even when I ended up
in Stars and Stripes in February. So I one upped my game by commenting
in any news.va.gov article that would apply. Got quite few up. Then again,
wasnt much of a line. Maybe 3 of us per article at most.

Then on the Feb 2023 RAC press release they stopped my last comment.
Had a felling they would try again in other places.

The Feb 6th article is "Accessing new toxic exposure health care and benefits"
and below are the comments I tried to upload. Server just pretends I dont exist.

So sent this to the OIG who will fail me once more. From there I will take this
over to the Department of Justice and several House / Senate subcommittees.
Because this one draws a line in the sand. Not like VA is being over whelmed
with public comments. But, this is now getting rid of any unwanted comments
of any kind. The true mark of censorship and a totalitarian regime that does
not follow the constitution any more. If citizens are not allowed to speak up, 
this isnt a free society any more.

I know the IG will fail me, and that this one has to happen for VA and others
to silence the veterans from here out. Of all things, over the Toxic Exposure
Pathology Center. Which means I knocked that one out of the park and VA
has to kill it off. This one changes the entire game with VA ands brings in
millions of veterans that would not been able to before.

The real fight has now begun:

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https://news.va.gov/116593/accessing-toxic-exposure-health-care-benefits/

This is what I submitted that they kept blocking:

This is still the same problem over and over. 

These registries and such are reliant on rudimentary medicine. There is nothing 
advanced about the labs and imaging. Like with ABHOR, your basically getting a 
10 minute exam plugged into the Genesis portal data system. At best a chest 
xray and pulmonary function test.

The PACT Act needs revision and refinement as does environmental healths 
programs. Because they miss one critical aspect, true tissue collection. Meaning 
inner tissue resection for toxicology and Pathology workup. True proof of toxic 
exposures.

VA needs to implement a Toxic Exposure Pathology Center for all these veterans 
so it can do more than conventional exams. It's time to use a variation of forensic 
medicine and dig deeper to show possible physiological issues rather than merely 
suggest them. 

Right now, every registry program will fail to provide details of toxic exposures other 
than survey and self report. Blood labs won't even find much unless they push 
harder than Chem 7 and such. Damn sure won't find heavy trace elements as they 
don't look at anything but specified standard markers.
 
VA is ignoring 26 years of my hard work and sacrifice in all this for no good reason. 
They know I'm right,  as did the VA Research Advisory Committee I pitched this all 
to. With good reason, I ran the entire gambit this last year and it failed me. All of it. 

Even after begging the War Related Illness and Injury Study Center to do a fatty 
tissue resection for full spectrochemical analysis. The system is not flexible in this. 
So millions will find out what I already know. Only,  another year will have passed for 
them while getting no where.

Sec of VA knows all this, and just plans to ignore it. Let things run there course. He 
knows as I've pointed each step out this last year. Then presented my findings to the 
RAC in a PowerPoint they are now blowing off. Ended up in Stars and Stripes over 
it, so what? Really?

My suggestions are valid. I should not have to keep repeating all this in these public 
comments. I've got alot more to add but for now I'm sticking with just this part.

March 3rd, 2023

People tell me nothing, and so I dont know what files are missing from my
website. Been a lot of missing files the last few months. My website had been 
gutted.

Its one of my best Powerpoints from 2006, and people are looking for it. Its
been down for no telling how long now. Mystery file.

This one really tells a story, 28 slides. Really graphic and flashy. 1.7 megs.

Well, its back up.
http://gulflink.org/rac/rac2006.ppt

February 21st, 2023

Try as I might, mediocrity has a firm grip on the small minds that write for the American
media. I was asked to write letters to the editor last week because to these bozos a
story like mine isnt worth telling. A veteran that was asked to present to a federal committee,
and was in Stars and Stripes over it. Why that happens every day and was never worth
publishing. 

Its no mistake, American media is either so incredibly lame it cant tell what they truth is
any more or its part of a very sinister plot against the population. Because it set out to
deliberately tank the VA RAC meeting in Hawaii and it did so. The same thing with the
PACT act, and the failure of ABHOR. Only say positive things. Think only happy thoughts.

You dont want me being negative? What did you offer that was better? No news? That
Gulf war veterans should not be seen or heard? Thats discrimination. Bold face, in your
face, some people are created more equal than others. What is your message?

Killeen Daily Herald, Temple Daily Telegram, Waco Tribune, Gatesville Messenger,
Channel 10 Waco, Channel 44 Waco, and others that I walked into repeatedly up
to last week have decided any story is worth printing but mine, and Gulf war veterans
plight. That the Secretary of VA never did any of us wrong, and is the only person that
deserves media. How could I possibly be right about anything? Im not rich, famous,
and all over the net like I used to be. The only opinion that matters is the government
as they never wronged Gulf war vets.

So they win. Silenced a poor destitute veteran fighting for his life. That my idea of a
Toxic Exposure Pathology Center is just stupid. It should be statutes to each of the 
media directors locally who are gods among us. What was I thinking that veterans
rights would come above theres. That any veterans opinion matters any more. What
did a combat veteran ever do for this country? The local media sure proved that to
me the last 2 months. How dare I think I have value in this country.

February 17th, 2023

Email broadband:

Dear Sec of VA Denis McDonough and RAC

I think Ive come up with a answer to the issue of the PACT act, ABHOR, environmental agents,
WRIISC, Gulf war registry loop holes.

There all designed to fail for one reason. They will never collect hard evidence of toxic exposures
if they never take physical tissue samples that would prove it. Diagnostics, back up the docs
nation wide with second opinions like the AFIP did.

I had a long talk with the VABBB in Boston yesterday. Theoretical's. Long story short, it cant be
expanded or adapted to function like the AFIP.

Try as I might, I cant find a resource within VA that for now could take on the monumental task
of this nation wide. With millions of possible samples that might pour in if this were to kick off.

Then it occurred to me, repurpose a asset that isnt being utilized correctly.

A while back I had a tour of the Doris Miller VAMCs Center of Excellence. The tour was of the
interior and staff. By the end of the tour I was quite displeased. Dr. Seim used the word somatic
research in his presentation and that set off alarm bells. One of the doctors I think was my former
general clinic doctor who only ordered drug screenings every time I came in, was a hateful person
with no compassion. Because of him my foot tumor surgery dragged out another year. After the
tour the clinic would not respond to my emails or me. I realized this was a VA dead end and
a waste of resources because I told them about my potential TBI and they showed no interest.

This is a terrible waste of the expensive freezers, and genetic screening equipment. Why not
repurpose this facility in a more veteran friendly format that could benefit us all nation wide. Its
centrally located, fairly new, mostly done, and would not need very much to make it happen.
Turn a negative into a positive. Create the pathology center that could answer lots of hard lines
questions about Toxic exposures.

I have much more to add, but for now -  Im putting this on the table.

Thank you for your time and consideration.

                                                          Sincerely
                                                          Kirt P. Love
                                                          Director, DSBR
                                                            former member VA ACGWV

http://gulflink.org
https://www.va.gov/gulfwaradvisorycommittee/

February 16th, 2023

Message to VA, RAC:

To whom it may concern

In 2000 I began my fight with the Armed Forces institute of Pathology after visiting with
them at Walter Reed Army Hospital. I could not get Florabell Mullick to catalog Gulf War
tissues samples. Even though they shuttered there doors in 2011, they pretty much
had closed down by 2003.

So by 2005 I had been repeatedly telling the VA Research Advisory Committee the need
to address tissue sample collection issues with the pending death of Wade George from
a brain tumor in 2006. That the AFIP was closing.

VA announced the Gulf War VA Biorepository trust in 2006. But, it was strictly brain bank
and not broad spectrum tissues collection. To be moved to Boston and later be dubbed the
VABBB. I still have the original powerpoint of it in Dallas Nov 2006.

Despite all my best efforts, what little tissue collection has taken place has been brain
or cancer driven. Even with the WRIISC and many other entities. Which when put to the
test in 2022 I could not get a tissue resection done by anyone no matter how hard I tried.

If your going to be using the PACT act, ABHOR, Gulf War Registry, WRIISC, Toxic Exposure
screening, - your going to need some form of physical tissue sample collection other
than surgical cancer biopsy. You need advanced pathology bordering on forensic toxicology
to looks for foreign physical substances in veterans tissues.

I pitched this at the Hawaii RAC meeting February 9th 2023. Im still quite serious about this
and have begun calling around asking anyone in the VA / DOD infrastructure willing to champion
this issue.

My concern keeps coming back to this, everyone throws the DOD Joint Pathology Center in
Maryland at me. This is DOD and I dont feel will be impartial. Soon as they get there hands
on the samples it will be privatized or skewed in some way.

There is a need for a separate entity to deal with PACT act, ABHOR, Gulf war, and similar ventures
when it comes to cutting edge tissue collection for military environmental health exposures.
Im not sure expanding the VABBB would be in our best interest. But, I have nothing better, and
already approached them. They seem open to this.

This has gone on for 23 years now for me, and I feel too much time has been wasted on this.
Tens of thousands have died that any useful data is lost. Countless autopsies that had been
written off as substance abuse or other similar elements wherein liver damage might have
been Leishmaniasis or other exotics rather than just cirrhosis. Many many autopsies that
had a biased cause of death.

I still feel the original AFIP tissue collection has valuable Gulf war samples that needs to
be cataloged in some useful manner. It wasnt just brain and neck samples as implied by
Mike Kilpatrick of DHSD at that time.

Thank you for your time and patience.

February 15th, 2023

Message to VA, RAC:

One of the things the Military have not taken serious is the contamination of
the blood supply by troops donations even to this very day. 32 years later.

There was a FDA blood banking meeting in DC December 11th  2003. I did a
powerpoint that blew them away.

In 2004 the FDA, CDC, and others should have banned American troops returning
from Iraq, and Afghanistan from ever giving blood again. That Leishmaniasis
was running unchecked in the ranks. Troops with black skin lesions that were told
it would resolve on its own. First it was 110, then 200, 400, and then 1,100 cases
that were reported in 2004. I could not get a honest answer out of DHSD and
deployment health at WRAIR about how bad it was. The diagnostics for this were
not up to the job.

The dormancy factor of visceral Leishmaniasis is such that it may go undetected
for decades. Its nearly a genetic pathogen still masked in the cell bodies as a
double nucleus. Very hard to prove or disprove.

We never fully disproved this in Gulf war I vets, and how many have died of this
over the years. Largely, no preserved tissue samples other than the AFIP which
never cataloged this. Only by genetic screening this would have surfaced.

Those that contract Leishmaniasis through the blood supply have no recourse
and only Walter Reed Army Hospital to verify the test. Which just isnt done.

Personally, I feel no Gulf War era veteran should ever give blood to the general supply
as they do not screen for these type pathogens even to this day. With its up to 40 year
dormancy its just not worth it.

When I said my powerpoints were famous, this is the one that set the bar. Listed below.

This is one major thing the PACT act, and all the environmental health registries will go
on missing the mark on. A very uncertain number for a orphan illness that Americans
dont take serious at all these last 20 years. Much like the West Nile Virus we brought
back from Iraq in 1991 that was in the blood supply.

                                                                       Sincerely
                                                                       Kirt P. Love
                                                                       Director, DSBR


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https://slideplayer.com/slide/4228697/

December 11th 2003

Contamination of the American Blood supply
 

February 14th, 2023

Had been wondering about the last two months on the PACT act. Then it occurred  
to me. VA is VERY happy with the PACT act. A little too much so. They know it has 
several glaring flaws they want to keep as is. Its too early in to change these, and fix
them since they want the outcomes. For it to take a year for the rejections to come
in after the media lost interest. To isolate the complaints one at a time, drive them 
into submission. Pick them off. 

Started with me, to drive me off in plain sight. Failed me, so what. Keep that wall up
and make sure no one listens. See if the House and Senate committees remain apathetic
to individuals. Wait us out. Save more money waiting out millions.

Keep in mind, no VA programs is flawless. How is this one so flawless right now? 
Thats just it, this isnt. Just stand on the necks of anyone complaining and make sure 
to run them off. That the media will help them do it. No negative reviews.

A program with no veterans complaining at this scale is impossible, unless more than
myself are being silenced the same way. Im the first, most vocal. But, media through
Texas wont help veterans. If the PACT act fails you, its going to be a secret.

February 12th, 2023

This is really frustrating, the article left out a lot and it glossed over my former
committee entirely. Left out my website was being blocked. Made me look
like a fly by night just starting rather than the old crowd dating to the creation
of the RAC in 1998 by law. It ignored former Chairman Jim Binns as did the
committee itself this week. Its a start though.

My powerpoint ( another thing left out ) was a game changer on all levels and
the committee opposed it going in. None of these people came to my aid before
the meeting, and right afterwards went back to silent mode on me.

Goolge scrubbed me so people cant find "Kirt Love" and "Gulflink.org" so if I cant
be found then I dont matter. Im 100% convinced Sec of VA Denis McDonough is 
behind this request to help protect his career at my expense. Only, I didnt play
fair and die as he hoped.

Im world famous again. Will take time for people to figure this out. That or Im 
murdered shortly to make sure I dont pull off a end run here. Considerable effort
has gone into scrubbing me off the net, and create search rules to circumvent me.
I was everywhere once, and right now Im being made to look like I never was.
World famous in 2003. Now? Cant find me when you look for me. Unless its one
of those scam websites like "checkpeople" implying I have a criminal past and
all kinds of hidden dirt that isnt there. Never would have passed a background
check with the TDEM if I was a criminal flake.

Anyone happy for me with the RAC presentation? Nope, total silence. So much
resentment and cowardice out there. How dare I try to make a difference. No
wonder the GWI issue is stagnant and silent. The real question is now I called
this all out, does Bernie Sanders and the Senate VA committee go on pretending
I dont exist so they can avoid all this. He helped us get PL 105-368 and then the
last 10 years he walked away from us. So far, dodging me just like the Sec of VA.
I was the only one fighting over healthcare and benefits for Gulf war vets, and now
the major flaws in the PACT act. IT FAILED ME.

For now, its a hollow victory. The current RAC got away with horrendous behavior
and implied the meeting was a success. It wasnt. It was a shut out with a very
meager phone in presence. Not a proud moment for VA. Sure bent over backwards
to rob me of my victory with my presentation which was the best of my 26 years
career in this crowd. That I DONT MATTER.

Local media will bend over backwards to punish me for this one. So will the local
VAMC and regional. Because there is no oversight, or compassion left. Gulf war
vets should not be seen or heard. At all cost. Who is really behind that?

February 10th, 2023

Success at the RAC meeting, the ripple effect, then Sec of VA
Denis McDonough sneaks in and out of Waco the same day

Its been a horrid month. Trying so hard to make all this happen since December. Really, 
this all started last February. Running the gambit of every program in VA to the Toxic
exposure screening days before the meeting.

What lead to the invite to speak on the RAC was nothing short of bizarre. Spelled it
out to them. They invite me, then pull back telling me not to read into this. Try to tell
me what to say heading into this, and then tried to gut my powerpoint twice right before
the meeting.

3 days, and they discuss all the things I was asked not to talk about. Only thing that
I wasnt on top of was ILER. No biggie, I had a taste of it already.

Before the presentation, could not get anyone to say my name. After it, few didnt.
Suddenly tissue collection and Long Covid POTS was all the buzz. After my presentation
the committee will never be the same. 30 minutes later, they were ignoring my public
comments.
Chronology powerpoint

As I fully expected, they went silent on me right after this. Retaliation for the content
of my presentation. Because, I called on them to rebel against ORD and Policy and
planning. Right the wrongs of Sec of VA Eric Shinseki from 2009 to 2013. There is so
much in my presentation, my best ever. This one is famous now. They hate me for it.

Im driving around Waco taking pictures with my van today as I visit Regional and
directors staff at Doris Miller. Letting them know I filled a IG complaint about me being
kept from the PACT act hiring event. Both pleaded innocence in this but they knew
from prior notice Sec of VA was coming. Others who knew me saw this as a media
opportunity while they grovel at Sec of VA's feet. Pro government media, all is well.
Only, the PACT act failed me and no one cares that is supposed to.

Its clear now, as I was going to the TV stations about the RAC meeting they got the
notice about the Sec of VA coming - and cut me off. veterans arent important? Only 
the Sec of VA is. Suck up to him to get them positive attention from there masters.

So here is a page of me saying the PACT act failed me in front of every media source
I could get to today that blew me off.
PACT act failed me - Feb 10 2023
 
  

February 4th, 2023

RAC makes its move to censor me

When someone promises you to speak for 15 minutes, you give them the
courtesy to do so. You publish the agenda to that effect your committed.

The RAC had the nerve Friday evening to tell me to cut my presentation
to 10 slides. No one else, just me. Never mind I timed myself at 30 seconds
a slide and coming in at 12 minutes. Ive been doing these for 23 years now.
Im a professional. Unless people plan to interrupt me.

Well, Im not changing a thing. They will never give me chance again to present
as the committee is filled with ringers out to censor me. As I firmly believe
the Sec of VA is behind this to minimize any damage or messages.

Its the 4th, and the Oahu Veteran Center wont past the RAC flyers, PR
releases, or the new article in Hawaii. In fact, media nation wide does not
seem to want to touch any of this.

What has moved up the ranks of Google is the article by Anthony Hardie
about my committee and the GWVIS reports. Means a lot of people have
seen it and know something is wrong.

What people forget in all of this, each person that knows of this and does not
speak up is aiding a felon. You become a accomplice. So foir instance the
people stropping my public comments on the VA website to articles like
https://news.va.gov/115225/va-gulf-war-research-advisory-committee-feb-7-9/
Ther person moderating this page is too terrified to post my remark. Here 
it is since he wont approve it:

"No Comments" 

Kirt love February 3, 2023 at 8:29 pm - Reply
Your comment is awaiting moderation.

I’m one of the presenters and as of this evening theyre already trying to 
gut my presentation to censor me.

At this point I’m positive the Sec of VA is behind this. He does not want 
me discussing many things about VA. Dodged me all year long. Pretty 
sure he is the one that asked Google to pull the plug on my website. 
Called the White house about it today, senate, congress.

This meeting will NOT be like the others. Not another one designed to fail 
on purpose.

VA Buried my committees findings and silenced it for 13 years now. It’s 
doing all it can to censor me now.

This is what happens when you remove oversight and Congress walks 
away. You get a dysfunctional program that runs, spins in circles for a 
decade.

Sec of VA Eric Shinseki gutted both Gulf War committees, and VA never 
repaired the damage that has been done.

February 3rd, 2023

Calling the White House 9:30am there time Friday

By the White House standards, today as a bad day to call. I kept getting 
routed to the comments section which was closed today. They keep bankers
hours I guess.

In the past a Liaison officer was on premises that you could talk to. They
moved that over to VA who ignores it unless its financial hardship.

So tried to call the White House operator, and argued with two of them for
a few minutes. One sent me to comments which was closed. The other
made it clear that comments was the only option. That it would be open
Tuesday next week.

This makes it official, unless your part of the government - you cant reach
anyone like you used to. Above the law, and out of reach of the common 
person. Hurry up and wait?

It wasnt this way with the Clintons, and that is the role model?

Its bad enough that the 32 year mark the Gulf war records are still concealed.
Not to be made public till 50 years have passed. By now its a blatant cover 
up to protect war criminals that profited for the war. Im the last person left
calling out the 6,000,000 records, and getting rid of me finally puts the war
in the past. A person who owns a military domain name to do so. The only
person to ever do so.

Just as I found out the website had been gutted and started putting content
back up in December, Google stops crawling and claims it cant index me.
Try all I might, the Google tools wont index me even though Godaddy says
Im up. There not responsible for Google and such.

Took me time to figure out what happened, people telling me I had been
hacked. It was more than that. This was out right suppression. Make me look
like I dont exist. 23 years of hard work and dozens of interviews just simply
not there any more. Im being erased.

Sec of VA Denis McDonough has spent the last year dodging me. Im pretty
sure because at the advent of the PACT act I was about to prove a good chunk
of all this coming out is rigged to fail. Same time a NAS report says so about
the Burn Pit Registry ( ABHOR ). In fact, almost a dozen items all year long
as I run the gambit of all these programs that failed me. Then there is the
issue of my former VA advisory committee they want covered up. Forgotten.

Im little more than a political prisoner now in my home. I have no rights and
Im supposed to just stay shut in my house out of the way of others who
do not seem to have anyones best interest at heart. Locally, state, or the
federal level. Im in the way of progress? Who's progress? Certainly not any
of the people that served in the military the last 32 years.

How can I not be alarmed, this is my life. Which has no value apparently. That
23 years of work helping others was stupid of me. How dare I. Really? That
my military service is of no value. War veteran? Means nothing. Then what
does have value right now in the country? Certainly not me.

February 2nd, 2023

The pending RAC presentation in Hawaii, and the toxic media

The RAC wont get one fact at the meeting when I present. I found my own 
medical answers.

In VA's eyes, Im almost normal. Blood labs are almost middle ground now. 
Blood Pressure was 126 / 76. I have solid stools. Fully lucid. Full use of 
my appendages. Granted there are other issues and this isnt a cure, Im 
much more functional that even two years ago. First time in 32 years. At 
the age of 58? Never be like before the war, but Im not pricing coffins right 
now. ( $600 )

My research paid off, and saved my life. No one cares. Well, my doctor 
at VA is impressed if no one else is. He doesnt argue with me on labs or 
medicines. He gets Im on to something. 

The people Im trying to get this across to dont have answers. That if 
anything else my methods treat geriatric conditions, and improve the 
quality of life for the elderly if nothing else. Something Im going to take 
up with the VA geriatric committee in April.
 
Stigma, personal bias, arrogance, contempt, apathy. All the hallmarks of 
subjective reasoning. While I struggle so hard with objective reasoning. 
Am I kidding myself or not? Only when it comes to how low others will sink.

So my own answer is simple, I will out live these folks, and present my 
findings when these people are finally out of the way. Which wont be much 
longer from the looks of things.
 
Still leaves my fight over Gulf War healthcare and benefits that no one is 
helping with. Whole crowd is fixated on research which is a dead end. 
PACT act and ABHOR producing false hopes. No avenues or committees 
that even care about any of this.

This crowd needs me, and it will sort of figure that out at this RAC meeting 
in a few days. If people dont bury each other in personal commentary, and 
singular circular arguments.

Im at the apex of my own career, at what looks like the worst moment to be 
there in American history. When people are drowning in apathy, and mean 
indifference. Especially the now toxic  media with its jaded agendas.

I dont even have to share my results. Im not benefiting from doing so right 
now. Im being gracious, and battling a all uphill war over others peoples 
egocentric issues. That Im the problem?
 
People should realize by now Im a force of nature, and ignoring me doesnt 
make me go away.

Time will prove me out. 

January 31st, 2023

The Toxic Exposures Screening with the Waco VAMC nurse

Did my Toxic Exposure screening over the phone. Its what I was afraid of.
Self report Ice storm messing it up going in, so its going to be done by phone.

Without coaching, you have to tell the doctors what you think might
be the issue. Then they apply standard medicine to it. This wont find
anything using traditional labs.

This is designed to fail.

I gave this nurse a earful, and gave her the history of SHAD, ionizing radiation,
Vietnam, gulf war, OIF, and medical evidence collection among them by
program. The most complicated screenings she will ever do was me.

H2S, fuming nitric acid, oil well smoke, dusty mustard, recursive compounds,
dioxins, industrial pollutants, silicosis, ammonium perchlorate, burning
vehicles, CARC paint, diesel fuel, spent vehicle oils, tent heaters, burning
EOD demolitions, chemical weapons laying in the open, burning nuclear
reactors and fuels, bombing debris, and so much more.

You watch what I do with this information and VA.

Trying to guide others when doing these exams, Because they dont know
what to offer VA. Self reporting relies on education, and most gulf war vets
still dont get what happened. The say Gulf war syndrome and that falls flat.
They say undiagnosed conditions and VA diagnoses badly, there are no
undiagnosed conditions.

This all hinges on blood labs, and only forensic toxicology would be able
to prove anything. Im asking to change that. Keep in mind I dont fault the 
VA nurses and doctors. This is bad executive policy from above making 
them do this in a rudimentary way that fails. The problem is 810 Vermont
street in DC, and it wanting to fail at this.

OMG, I have never worked so hard in my life to get out information just
about a RAC meeting for Gulf War vets. I dont know what is with all this
opposition to the story, Finally, by Sunday one story gets out and its
being shunned even in Hawaii.

American media has bent over backwards to keep this at bay. Im stunned
at how weird and ugly people are being about this event. I would swear they
are being told not to publish this. PACT act, ABHOR, and Gulf War.

Then Google sets out to silence my website. Never happened before.

Posted the article from Hawaii on the Oahu Veteran Center facebook page
and they took it down. The Flyer from VA two times, and now this. They
are hosting the event. Its two days later and the article isnt back up. What,
I cant post it, and they simply wont because I did?

This has gotten sinister to say the least. About a week to go and the global
media seems bent on suppressing this. The hidden message is as dark as
it can get.

Cant get this out with or without my name attached to this. Should have been
in all the newspapers, and TV stations by now. Its a long list now of those that
know of it, and wont touch this. Big names. 

January 30th, 2023

This is a reminder that not just Gulf war veterans are forgotten, but there children
too. In 1993 something happened that lead to this very study. It was quickly
ignored and forgotten.

These studies did not follow a lot of things. Still births, miscarriages, and extreme
deformities. They did not do long term studies of learning disabilities, autism, ADHD,
and so many issue like this.

What happened 30 years later? Is anyone beside me even asking? I pushed these
kinds of issues while on my VA advisory committee in 2008. It was buried with our
committees final report. Then VA happily allowed the Gulf War spouse and children
registry to lapse. Totally wrote these people off.

Journalism is dead, too many fragile egos

In the past I had 3 big moments that got global attention. The opposition to
Presidential Special oversight Board in 2000. The opposition to the troops
going to Iraq in 2003. My getting a federal committee and being on it in 2008.
Right now, its the problems with the PACT act, ABHOR, and the RAC meeting
heading into February 7th, 8th, 9th.

What Ive run up against is universal contempt by the media to virtually any
story that isnt sucking up to the government. Im not allowed to have a attitude
or be angry about it either. Im supposed to be groveling at these peoples feet 
accepting any crumb they might dole out rather than tell a story of hardship.
Some of the most mediocre writers Ive ever seen with big chips on there
shoulders. Never mind I live in destitution and hardship, the story isnt about
me and my hurting fellow vets - its about these writers first.

It was hard to get media long ago, but it wasnt this hard. Ive never seen so
many people that put themselves above there story. The lame excuses, and 
manners as each one justifies there attitude. The story isnt important unless
it wins them favor with the government, not the public. These folks literally
enjoy devaluing me, and my hardships.

By now Im positive that Sec of VA Denis McDonough contacted Google to
have my website barred heading into the PACT act role out. Its the only thing
that makes sense. As he had the most to loose if I got attention. It would 
explain much of the last year and his attitude since February 2022 with me. This 
only furthers the contempt shown me having virtually no internet presence. 
As Google is a monopoly above the law in situations like this. It can censor the 
net when it suite them or the governments.

Whats your end goal here people? Do you not get the irony here. That this
screams George Orwell's class war scenario. Oppression of free speech to
control the masses? All of this is VERY ominous. What you do to others will
soon be done to you as well. Really? Cant happen? It just did.

January 27th, 2023

Google search engine blocking me entirely

Been at a fight between my host provider and Google. Godaddy says they are
doing there job, and dont care if search engines can pick me up. First time
in 23 years this ever happened.

Google on the other hand is a organization that has no way to reach when you
have a problem. Then when you email them, instant referral to there legal team
for litigation. See you in court attitude. Thats tech support?

So GoDaddy says they are up, index file is out there. Google say Godaddy
isnt putting out a index file. Says it cant be indexed. But, they have made
everything of mine disappear off the net between the two. Zero searches and
that with me looking? Right.

OK, Google - my FCC complaint number is 155918753. 

The media cant find anything on me, and assumes Im a nut. 23 years of hard
work being buried at a critical moment with VA. This is no accident. Bad part
is since no on cares, they got away with it. The new norm in America, making
people disappear in broad daylight. This is what our government is going to
allow for its citizens, blocking our first amendment rights.

I can tell you this, the local TV stations in Waco are no friend of the veterans.
They are rude, condescending snobs writing puff pieces for the government.
This is nothing like it was just 10 years ago. Im sure they lied about not being
invited to the Temple PACT act role out. Saw no media at it of any kind. Public
Relations at VA is a joke, but its not that bad not to invite anyone from the media.

       

January 25th, 2023

Media and VA shut out veterans voices now

Doesnt seem to matter where I go to in the country about this RAC meeting
in Hawaii, they wont put up the flyers or talk about it. Total shut out in
Texas, in the US, and in Hawaii. Not with my name by them or just them 
without me. For 2 weeks solid of this. Not just one, but dozens from TV
stations to newspapers and such.

Google claims it cant index my website. So its shut me out. Zero searches
even when I search myself. Godaddy says my website is working and
they really dont care if Google cant pull me up. This all means Im being
shut out fate 23 years of the website. All started 3 months ago.

My issue is 3 fold. The PACT act that failed me. ABHOR that has done all it
can not to provide statistical data for 8 years. The RAC meeting in Hawaii
that ORD is trying to sabotage. Now the media had demonstrated hostility
towards me and Gulf war vets regardless of my part.

Can only mean one thing, to censor veteran voices and paint a happy picture
where the PACT act is making it all better when its not. Upbeat stories only
and nothing with a down side. Even to misreport it like with me. As nothing 
has changed for me in 20 years, it didnt the last 6 months either. 

Now it looks like the new chairman and the RAC staff are doing all they can
to either censor my Powerpoint presentation or just remove my invite. I tried
to reach out to the chairman yesterday, and I got silence. Not even diplomacy
on her part. Shut out. 

Im in contact with all manner of people related to this, and the ones that matter
are too sick to be apart of this. They either are too distracted, unaware of anything,
or too confused to focus. Producing a unwelcome silence.

This has begun to take on a Karen Silkwood quality around me, and I know how
that story turned out. Only, Im saying it out loud before it happens, and no one
cares. Which is giving the US government the green light to wipe out other lives
in a similar way nation wide in 2023. To silence veteran voices. 

Make no mistake, these folks silence the loudest voices first. Then they silence
the people who knew about this. Then they make sure no one can speak up
about this topic. After that, nothing happened and all is well. Is it?

January 22nd, 2023

Trying to reach out to Jon Stewart for 6 months now

I feel bad for Jon because he so busy promoting the PACT act right now
and no one can tell him if its going wrong. Ive been trying ever since the
PACT act passed to warn them of the pitfalls coming, and how VA will
abuse the letter of the law. 6 months later, and boy its happening.

Sadly, word will get back when its a avalanche that could have been 
prevented. As people wont speak up at first. Then it will take time for
someone who cant articulate what happened to them, which isnt that
easy. Once the rejections are in the thousands a year from now the 
backlash will hit. That VA largely promoted PTSD as the easy out. 
A somatic trap.

This has been ugly for me, slow, painful. Having to start over from scratch
with ever tiny detail around me. To over come the tremendous apathy, and
current mean spirited media. To have my past works trivialized, or suppressed.

At least the people of McGregor have been kind to me. Start small and build
on that. Waco has been nothing but rude, and mean till now. So many snobs
that just want everything to go away. Live in the past, comfortable.

Waco VA official cheers PACT Act, encourages applications

( front page news in Waco )

Im so embarrassed by this puff piece. Im misquoted, and even played
as a moron to VA. So much is left out of this. I certainly got nothing from
the last year, and damn sure no increase for respiratory and GI. The PACT
act failed me in so many ways, and it will others. But, the vets that pushed
it through did the best they could. VA twisted the meaning of the law to
its advantage. Which a year from now people will point out.

I posted a public comment that Im sure they removed by now. So I took a
screenshot to show it was up there. I even asked this writer who's sides is
he on?

American media is so busy playing down the veterans themselves. If its
not upbeat then dont write it. Tells me the government has been weaponized,
and has taken control of the media.

What is missing is Long Covid, and the lies about the ABHOR exam system.
Where only 9% have had a actual exam these last 8 years. That is missing
from the website state by state, participants - not exams. ABHOR and the
other registries play a major part in the PACT act.

Ive been through it all the last year and it all failed me. Im the first to do so.
All the while pointing out each step to Sec of VA Denis McDonough by email.
In return, he has been totally rude to me the whole time. They acknowledge
my emails, he just doesnt feel Im worth writing to. Discrimination.

What a nightmare all this is for me. My life isnt any better, and so far all this
is a lie to say im fine when I live in destitution, and despair. Fighting for my
life every day, and VA stalling me at every step. Hoping I fade away or just
die shortly. Only, Im trying to help the 20,000 Gulf war vets of Hawaii much
less the 3,000,000 the PACT act is going to fail in lots of little ways.

How do I know? Im living it and a year later of trying by there rules my life isnt 
better - get that part straight. Im good at this, so how bad is it for those that
arent? 
 

VA was in a turbulent period of fast rotating Secretaries of VA a while back. 
None were staying around very long. A lot unmemorable moments leading to
a really disastrous show down in 2014. Sec of VA Eric Shinsekist
resignation in disgrace.

But, while in office he did a bunch of harm, and personal internal agendas
that VA never set out to fix. Grudge matches that didnt need to happen.

He had it in for the Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans, and wanted
its doors closed. Not just for its agenda, and methods, its that I opposed the
committees final report. This was not going to end well. Messy. So VA set
it to play down the committee, and just pretend we never existed.

Having done so, he set out to go after the Research Advisory Committee on 
Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses in 2012 that had given him a vote of no 
confidence. His answer, get rid of the chairman, and committee members
that spoke ill of him.

Since all this in 2013, its been 10 years of things spiraling down wards
with VA ringers towing the line of each Secretary of VA. In return, its
been dysfunction, and continual losses for Gulf war vets. Having rid of the
remaining reporting systems like the GWVIS, and finally killing off the
VA Gulf war newsletter.

Its happening again with Secretary of VA Denis McDonough who does
not take accountability for his actions, and his staff. For a year I have
written him directly, and they acknowledge they got my emails. Then
no letter from him, no conversations, and his staff even going after people
that did help me. With every Gulf war program, WRIISC, Burn pit Registry,
PACT act role out, and Toxic exposure exam. They dont work. His answer
is to avoid me. Really? Im that scary? Little ole me?

Gulf war vets continue to suffer from BAD VA management, legacy government
personnel, stigma, and what I take as personal discrimination against me.
That I am unworthy of his attention. For what, more of the same?

A really bad trends started in 2009, and the cycle needs to be broken. We
need to address the short sighted, and mean conduct of VA officials that
has lead to so much current dysfunction. As I feel a lottery of random people
right now would put in a more sincere Secretary of VA then one appointed.

Its time for change, and its NOT complicated.

January 21st, 2023

At this point Im beginning to get things back up on the net. But, there is a trick
to searching Google now. It does not respond to direct inquiries. The shorter
a phrase, then its about strictly popularity rather than topic. To find me you have
to type a sentence like "Kirt Love Gulf War" rather than just my name. Still, Im
finding volumes of things missing. People were asking about my website, and
the Yahoo mail list for some time now, and these weird filters and hidden app 
functions were not showing me this.

Granted I wanted my privacy, strive for it. But, it looks like others were taking
advantage of this to try, and wipe out my existence. A grand colorful past unmatched
by others that is being trivialized because mediocrity is the new thing. No one is a
hero these days, and anyone trying must be subverted. The more sincere, the 
worse the reaction to them. The era of the anti-heroes. Which there are way too 
many of making America worse every day.

This has never been more true than the media Im dealing with now. Talk about
not wanting to report a story. So conditional now. Better be upbeat about the
government and whatever. What? VA seems bent on a misinformation campaign
like never before, and the media cant wait to promote that. Then they try to find
vets to match there stories, and they cant find any. Largely because they want
upbeat stories about VA efforts. So many are carrying grudges, and you get all
this mediocre tripe about the writer, and not the story. Its a huge double standard
and the poor are having to suffer the most for it. This is a social class war.

Everything Im doing to try, and help the 25,000 Gulf war vets of Hawaii before the
Feb RAC meeting is being met with some of the most lame things I have ever seen.
What they are doing is canceling each other out, and making sure that if anything
is said its between 1 to 2 weeks before the meeting. Why? Because this is geared
to reach individuals rather than groups. To divide and conquer. Not enough time
to rally a large collective effort. Having realized the government can defeat "armies
of one", they want this one on one to keep them in submission. The few that do
show will put out there hand, get nothing, and walk away bitter. Silenced.

Ive done all I can to try, and rally the old crowd. Nope, sulky silence. They either
plan to come in as "Armies of one" to attempt to grand stand, or not at all. Each
person has become so jaded, and self centric now they dont plan to work as a
whole which VA is counting on. They have already set out to undermine me like
much of the last 20 years. For what? They had 10 years of this going no where but
down. Driving away people. It failed in 2022 in such a spectacular fashion. More
of the same would only make it worse. Nope, got to fall back on destructive
behavior like a junky looking for one last fix. Ugh....

Only, I know the OIF folks are hurting and trying. They knew real combat and
were sent back to Iraq over and over. They are the ones now in VA at all levels
trying to save themselves. These are the people who showed me kindness the
last 2 years, and that they want to make a difference. They are in VA medical
centers now improving them alone, isolated, over whelmed. Being tricked by
VA executive staff to take the blame for bad management and policies. Im trying
hard to protect these folks from fallout or games

In the end, I can only do so much against a wall of global mediocrity. I have
so many ideas, and 20 years of experience behind that. The people that want
me at bay have nothing, they just dont want me to try. They set out to sabotage
my committee and its largely been that way ever since. The RAC meetings are
mostly circle jerks of egos canceling each other out in a mockish type class
war environment. So much effort into humiliation and keeping the vets at bay.
Anyone but the committee members who have lofted themselves to god hood.
10 years of boorish stagnation VA is thrilled with.

Yes, none of this helps outright. Criticism. But, Im tired of people walking up
to me wanting something then chucking me right after. Thousands of them
like Im some well funded organization just to grant them wishes. They have
taken everything from me, Ive nothing left. Destitute.

The vets have to pull together, and fight for the greater good. You save all the
vets - you save yourselves. Stop being so selfish, and realize this is a civic
issue rather than strictly personal. Vote on a single agenda, and unite to push
it through. Not 100 people shouting over each other 100 different things.

Your choices have been taken from you, and shortly its just civil war till nothing
if left. All that entitlement only ends up with everyone having nothing.

Grow up America, the problem isnt every where - its in the mirror. Stop blaming
others, and fix what you can around you in positive ways. Stop using up all
around you out of spite. No one owes you, work for what is real. Your working
the last of us to death the last few years who are on over load from Covid.

January 19th, 2023

OK, Im a little surprised they left it open to post. But, it was real simple and
the jpeg of the RAC flyer. 2 hours later, the RAC sends out the notice after
2 weeks of silence over it. Then out of no where the vetcenter deletes two of my
post about the meeting. Like Im some diseased maniac posting pornography
or something as bad. Very offended.

So I posted it once more, and they took it down again. Now its personal.
Ive got screen shots to show it was up. No more. This is censorship. Told
the media there. Its on them now.

January 16th, 2023

First it was my Yahoo mail list Gulflink being destroyed after 20 years. Then my 
website largely gutted. Now Ive discovered the bulk of my news interviews gone 
from the web. Google makes it look like I never existed.

I tried looking so many up by title. Not there. Wall Street Journal? Really? 
Stars and Stripes? Science magazine?

PSOB news interviews 1999, all gone?

Many dont know I was on Hardball the night of the President State of the Union
in 2003. So much media in 2003. Gone?

When I got my committee in 2007. Where did all that go?

Its like someone to trying to make me look like I was no one all my life. 

Now I have to build a media section on Gulflink to show it all over time. Rebuild
what has been lost. But, will never regain all the search points I once had.


        

        
  
         
       

         

January 14th, 2023

November 1997 was a pivotal moment for Gulf War. Government Reform and
Oversight would kick off 17 hearings for the next decade. Heading into the
formation of programs such as RACGWVI and WRIISC with PL 105-368.

VA feared the congressional committees, and DOD had constant oversight as 
it played with its OSAGWI division. These entities played cat and mouse up 
to 2002. Then OSAGWI stepped back, as did MHVCB, and PSOB. By 2003 
OIF set in, and the direction was on that.

Christopher Shays and Bernie Sanders were the congressional favorites at
the time. The CDC conference in Atlanta in 1998 was setting the tone as
PL 105-368 went into overtime with the Omnibus bill. After many incarnations
that got further and further chopped up, its was signed into law November 1998.
Back when Bill Clinton was President.

April 11th 2002 the RAC had its first meeting. 3 years after the law was passed.
Secretary of VA Anthony Principi would be the first and last sympathetic Secretary
to work with the Gulf War Crowd. The charter set in January 2002 was way past
the 1999 deadline.

It would be a rough run. Filled with VA stalling and squabbling at each step.
They were not popular, and called VA out on a vote of no confidence in 2012.
VAs answer, gut the committee, and put on ringers. May 2013, they removed
Jim Binns as chairman even though the veteran community had no problem
with him. It was VA that had the problem. Others left in disgust June 2013.

After 2014, the committee did as VA instructed. Chairman after chairman came
and went. It was no longer a power house. No sweeping reports. No more
oversight. Congress walked away. VA relished in the committee being a silent
tool to bury the past.

Finally, in September 2022 Chairman Lawrence Steinman stepped down, and the
worst era has come to a end. February 8th, 9th the RAC will meeting in Hawaii
of all things to set up a new Chairman. Cheryl Walker, M.D is a cancer specialist
which sounds like VA already knew the cancer clusters have begun. What 
direction is this incarnation taking? Not the one it once had.

The RAC should reinstate Jim Binns and the older committee members at the
veterans request. 10 years, and VA has NOT done a better job without them.
If anything, its further gutted Gulf War Resources such as the GWVIS and
Gulf war Newsletter. Its stagnant. Only getting a shot in the arm from the PACT
act in 2022 which now is being subverted.

Where the hell is Government Reform in all this? The promise they made in
1998. Why have they left us for dead.

January 14th, 2023

Ive had 3 tumors removed by VA. So far, all benign. But, Ive also removed
other growths, and issues myself. Out of necessity. As they grew faster,
and faster I could tell I was in trouble. Dark brown, black. Often, it was a 
soldering gun so that I could make sure it was dead. Not coming back.
Do you know hard it is to hold this against you till the feeling is gone?

If its not on the books at VA, it didnt happen. Thats where our problem lies.
What gets reported, and the volumes that dont. Ive taken lots of gruesome
photos of myself over the years. This one I came close to loosing my leg.
Hobbled for 2 years while VA dragged it out. Then the surgeon tells me they
may have to take my foot. Sent me to Scott and White where it went quickly.
Months to recover. Get this, they sent me home without pain meds or crutches.
Had to walk on this that Monday to get meds in Waco, drove myself. Spent
the first two days after the surgery with no pain meds. How is that for fair.

Im telling you, pets get better treatment at veterinarians than we vets do. 
Its easy for people to be aloof when there not in pain. Ive had plenty of bad ER 
days, and ugly emergencies that I had to wait 5 hours for pain meds while 
waiting to have my fingers sewn back on. Holding them inside the glove upright
while trying to stop the bleeding. Nothing is urgent with these folks.

           
            

January 9th, 2023

There are no details about the Feb 7th 2023 veteran engagement session, 
it wasnt in the federal register notice. Its would be Hawaii in keep with the 
group but no one a said a thing out so far.

Media campaign is under way. Trying to reach as many as possible. 
Started with Hawaii itself, and now progressing to state side locations.

Modified the WEBEX link in the federal register notice to it fits on this page. 
VA should do a better job on the links by embedding them like I just did.

The GWVIS page is damaged and trying to find out what happened. 
Version 2 coming.

The fact the RAC is going to Hawaii hit a real sour note with all era 
veterans. Talk about grinding teeth when I talk to folks. VA has betrayed 
so many era veterans the last 2 years that no one feels sympathetic about 
this meeting. One picture of the new chairman on a surf board, and youve 
got a some serious attitude coming even from the older crowd who cant 
get care either.

January 8th, 2023

I had a major blow out with VA when I was on the VA ACGWV committee.
I had built a spreadsheet showing VA had altered its numerical stats in
the GWVIS reports over time. The spreadsheet was pretty damning, and the
numbers were not small ones. VBA wrote back it was a technical glitch
and blew me off. The end result, having been caught changing the numbers
and committing fraud - they killed the reports out right.

VA would produce a pre and post 911 report with some stats. Then after
2010 they just stopped all public reporting of Gulf war statistics.

Now Ive come to find the only place the GWVIS reports still exist is on the
RAC website and its only two of them. 2007, and 2008. But, the RAC 
website itself hasnt updated any gulf war links since 2014.

So here is my GWVIS webpage and the ACGWV committee materials
associated with this. Buried for 14 years.
GWVIS reports and the ACGWV subcommittee materials tied to them

January 7th, 2023

Dear Readers

You heard it here first. No where else.

The next RAC meeting is in Hawaii on Feb 8th and 9th. I find

this highly offensive.

This time, Im on the agenda presenting about the RAC the 

last 20 years in research.

Its the first time in 20 years the RAC has put me on the

docket as a presenter. Long long over due.

                              Sincerely

                              Kirt P. Love

Note: 23 years of reading the federal register every day,

it does pay to stay on it.

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Email to other:

They played me to the last minute, that it would be DC.
Then Federal Register posted at 5am on a Saturday as
I predicted. None of this is up on the VA website.
Notice in the email it says ET time. Hawaii.

I have a 25 slide powperpoint that is going to change the
direction of all of this. With a new item at the end no
one will see coming. That effects all era veterans.

The implications here are both staggering and nearly comical.

YOU DO NOT WANT TO MISS THIS ONE. Its my best work ever.

                                    Kirt



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February 9, 2023 - 3-4pm ET. 

Please provide your preferred title and affiliation.

Note all speakers and some committee members will be attending

virtually using Webex.

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[Federal Register Volume 88, Number 5 (Monday, January 9, 2023)]
[Notices]
[Page 1321]
>From the Federal Register Online via the Government 
Publishing Office [www.gpo.gov]
[FR Doc No: 2023-00135]


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DEPARTMENT OF VETERANS AFFAIRS


Research Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses, 
Notice of Meeting

    The Department of Veterans Affairs (VA) gives notice under the 
Federal Advisory Committee Act, 5 U.S.C. App.2, that the Research 
Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses will meet at the 
Oahu Vet Center, 1298 Kukila St., Honolulu, HI 96818. The meeting 
sessions will begin and end as follows:

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                Dates                                Times
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February 8, 2023                       9 a.m. to 3 p.m. Hawaii Standard
                                        Time (HST).
February 9, 2023                       9 a.m. to 12:30 p.m. HST.
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    All sessions will be open to the public. For interested parties who 
cannot attend in person, this meeting will also be available by 
videoconference by connecting to Webex at the following URLs:

February 8, 2023, 9 a.m. to 3 p.m. (HST): WEBEX
or join by phone: 1-833-558-0712 
Toll-free; meeting number (access code): 2764 095 6460. 
Meeting password: GWVets1991!Day1
February 9, 2023, 9 a.m. to 12:30 p.m. (HST): WEBEX  
or, join by phone: 1-833-558-0712 Toll-free; 
meeting number (access code): 2763 890 9669. 
Meeting password: GWVets1991!Day2

    The purpose of the Committee is to provide advice and make 
recommendations to the Secretary of Veterans Affairs on proposed 
research studies, research plans, and research strategies relating to 
the health consequences of military service in the Southwest Asia 
theater of operations during the Gulf War in 1990-91.
    The Committee will review VA program activities related to Gulf War 
Veterans' illnesses and updates on relevant scientific research 
published since the last Committee meeting. This meeting will focus on 
1990-91 military exposures, exposure assessment, and the health effects 
of genes, lifestyle and military exposures.
    The meeting will include time reserved for public comments 30 
minutes before the meeting closes each day. Individuals who wish to 
address the Committee may submit a 1-2 page summary of their comments 
for inclusion in the official meeting record. Members of the public may 
submit written statements for the Committee's review or seek additional 
information by contacting Dr. Karen Block, Designated Federal Officer, 
at 202-443-5600, or at Karen.Block@va.gov.

    Dated: January 3, 2023.
LaTonya L. Small,
Federal Advisory Committee Management Officer.
[FR Doc. 2023-00135 Filed 1-6-23; 8:45 am]
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      Sincerely

      Kirt P. Love 

      Disabled Gulf War Veteran 

              Former member: VA Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans

      Contact: Kirt Love - ( Email updated April 5th 2020 )

                   P.O. Box 414, 

                   Crawford, Tx 76638

 

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