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                        Website debunking the Special Assistant
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Updated:  March 28th, 2024
This website is from the early days of OSAGWI and is reflective of the
beginning appearance.  It does not look like the last incarnation only
because that got so watered down. The military Gulflink keeps changing
hands and URL's to hide it. There eventual goal is to delete it outright.
Once I die off then this website fades, they win, and it all will vanish. Forgotten
chapter of America. Until then, this website is a reminder of those forgotten
vets betrayal by America.

DOD sits on a vast amount of records that the bulk have been reclassified Top
Secret to be hidden for 50 years. Under the guise of WMD clause in the
national security records review system. Originally the records were listed
and reviewed like this:
1995 - 20,000,000 Gulf War military records declassified
1996 - 6,000,000 files given to OSAGWI to put on website
1996 - 1,700,000 files are medically relevant
1997 - 42,943 put up on gulflink.osd.mil website
At a cost of $150,000,000 less than .007% of the Gulf War Military 
records have been declassified for public release. 16 years later 
99.993% is classified , and the Pentagon has vowed to reclassify 
these records. This include Confidential Records that should have 
been released at the 15 year mark. They were not, and not at 20 years,
25 years, or 30 years. To protect private interest that profited from the war
and protect government officials from over 44,000 mistakes made there.

On February 14th 1999 I sent OSAGWI a FOIA asking for the bulk 
of its records names be declassified, and sent to me. I received a 
partial reply from General Vesser in a box with 2,877 pages, and 
two CD's. On the CD was the Structured database file and other part 
was a unstructured file. Again, only of the 42,943 files on the 
public server. In the Nov 5th1999 response letter from OSAGWI to 
me they explained they were processing the classified portion of the 
log sheets for me. That was the last I ever heard from them on paper 
concerning this FOIA. It remains mostly unanswered to this day 
OSAGWI database file of 42,943 files 
OSAGWI response to me concerning partial response to FOIA
on the other 6,000,00 files.

The Pentagon hides behind Executive Order 13292 so that the bulk
of what happened in the Gulf remains hidden from the public. Except
this is criminal intent to withhold information of neglect, misconduct,
mishandling, and much worse during the Gulf War. The very same
people who say nothing happened are the ones with full knowledge
of those records, and vow to conceal them at all cost. The same people
who lead us back to Iraq again under false terms, and created yet another
disaster to live down.
There should be FULL public disclosure, and we have the right to know 
what really happened in Iraq from 1990 to present. Only, America has
no interest in the truth or the rights of her veterans. This is a shameful
chapter of our history that ended up sending troops back and back under
false pretenses then betrayed them as well. We even protested sending
the troops in 2003, proven right for doing so, and still glossed over as the
occupation of Iraq went sour. Now a 2 trillion eye sore that America wants
to forget. There is no justice for the vets that served there then or now. There
wont till everyone connected to this has been dead a long time. The truth
buried not for national security, but economics, and the millions of lives
it destroyed over oil prices.

March 28th, 2024

Top down economics, and the illusion of progress
In a nut shell, the wealthy declared war on the poor December 2021, and with each
passing month it just gets more bloated, distorted, and out of control. Maybe it
hasnt burst into open violence, that is coming. Because a definite wall exist in
Washington DC between the social classes. Its very much a class war. I got a
huge taste of it the last 2 years. Even when I reached the top once more.

Gulf war is most certainly a reflection of this. If your on the top in the bureaucracy
then your protected from prosecution from the war crimes committed in 1991.
They shield themselves with good ole boys in he government records system so
that things remain classified for 50 years from public view. Not to protect America,
but the wealthy that profited from the war. The lower social classes then carry the
burden of living with the injustices, and be punished if they fight back. Which is where
I have been since 1991. Being oppressed, vilified, and punished for my ignorance of
there end goals early on. Then my efforts in there ranks the last 26 years.

The most recent RAC meeting was virtual once more, brief, about 4 hours. It was
small and unceremonious. I had submitted for the record long before hand. So they
had time to mull over my input. Then ignore it. So the meeting was over before it
really began. Those in the ranks content to keep there post. Those of us on the
outside beating on glass walls looking in, ignored openly. Oh, we are allowed to
comment at the end of the day. About 6 of us. Yes, this time its on the record and
with our names attached. But, it misses one common element - unity of purpose.

As we headed into the April 23rd, 24th RAC meeting in Phoenix Arizona I got quite
heated with the committee over the time it took to post the public comments and
committee minutes. 42 days this time. The others do not realize they owe me for
getting that reinstated from the September 7th 2023 meeting where we had been
reduced to male / female veteran. When VA had won a huge victory by pretending
they no longer have to deal with or recognize individuals.

The point had been, they would be right down the street from former VA RAC chairman
Jim Binns. That for the last 2 years they have been quite rude to. I tried to get them
to invite him to the meeting, and maybe a segment to speak. They ignored this request
in favor of keeping him at bay. Jim by the same token backed away from me to keep
from being associated with me. He had much to offer them, and neither side cared
about diplomacy or content any more. Its a game of egos. Im tired of all of them
because of this needless stalemate. Im simply the loudest of them all, and they want
this to all be smooth and silent. As silence is consent.

For me, this has gotten real simple. 2 things summarize all this. Physical evidence,
and long term genetic damage. Build a Toxic Exposure Pathology Center to take
physical tissue samples and run full toxicology like mass spectrometer analysis.
Then study pre and post blood samples to look at full genetic spectrum from 1989
to present to compare differences. These are the only 2 realistic goals left to put
this issue to bed. Been heading this way for 20 years now. Im reducing the terminology
month by month to sound bites. But, saying it over and over.

By the same token, PL 105-368 is still very much in need of revision. Amending. Bring
it up to 2024. No chance of that with people out there like Ronald Brown in the VA
ranks keeping everyone else at bay. Such a tool. Its all about him much like it was
all about Jim Bunker. Until they finally get driven away.

I tried to remind the RAC about reports to Congress long ago. Such as 105-388 that had
such a massive following in 1997. That we do that group such a disservice by not even
acknowledging what lead to that report. Much less what is important now. Like public
statistical reporting. Something we loss when I proved VA was padding the numbers
of the GWVIS reports in 2009. There answer? Get rid of my committee and stop producing
the reports. From 2010 on that was there goal, and they succeeded.

Right now, I consider myself last man standing in this issue. Not loyal to either side for
dozens of reasons. Aware that VA Washington DC acts on NO recommendations from this
committee or 22 years of veteran input. Sec of VA ignores it outright. As did Sec of VA Denis
McDonough on September 7th 2023. Because this is a social class war, and the wealthy
no longer have to deal with the public. They have cut us off hard for 2 years now. So has
the media sucking up to the wealthy. All because the villagers havent grabbed there pitch
forks, torches, and burn down the place.

Im watching a handful of veterans post the same old tired things on social media. They
dont see or hear others. Living in the past. Not willing to rally on common causes. VA
relishes this fact. Makes exclusion so much easier. Isolate them further. Both sides locked
into personal denial on so many levels. Total loss of objectivity. Which frustrates me in so
damn many ways. No platform, soap box, no start points. Just egos swimming in a mosh
pit not getting the irony of self indulgence.

So close to the goal. Tremendous headway in my own medical care, and lifestyle. Granted
Covid created a 3 year diversion. For me, its about balance. Reducing daily burdens. Ive
got a grasp of the genetic damage that has lead to my metabolic issues. The Lysosome
errors, and enzyme imbalances that ripple in minute ways. Getting my organs back to
equilibrium in a sea of chemical interactions. Finding answer after answer on my own.
Pancreas, Liver, Gall bladder, Kidney, Intestines, and such by diligence. 33 years of it.
As Im 60 now facing my remaining years with concern. Can I keep this up?

VA has zero desire to take Toxic exposures serious. As long as its not taking physical
body tissues like adipose fatty tissue, it dodges proof. No genetic answers, leave it to
small segments - dodged that. Wait us out. Like they have with Ionizing radiation, project
SHAD, Agent orange, Anthrax vaccines, Burn pits, Leishmaniasis, West Nile Virus,
and demo chemical weapon exposures. The price of war? Not for the wealthy.

Being obscure is so upsetting. Only because it delays progress. I want answers and
then move on with life. Im not stuck in the past, VA and our government is. They want
to stay in 1991, and I want to get past 2024. I did my job, they didnt. These are
elected public servants that forget there place. Damn sure dont like hearing you say
it to them. Just like the media forgets who it serves. Rather than what exist in this
second gilded age.

So for me I go on learning computer codings final steps, scratch building retro computers
of long ago, and managing my time so that every day Im busy. Im doing things every day
that defy the norm. Surrounded by idiots trying to cheat each other over scraps. As I
very much get what is going on. How stupid all sides are right now. That people think
civil war will be clean, quick, and easy. So much ignorance. I know better and keep
working on improving myself in the face of intellectual regression. People de-evolving
into more primitive former states. education becoming a joke, as is the 2024 election.

Ive learned to keep it simple. Which is very ironic considering how complex Ive gotten.
Yes, very much so. But, balanced in a way I do not exceed my ability to do so. Ive
no desire to be wealthy at all. Know better. My goal is a education unmatched. Using
intellect and technology in useful practical ways. Not taking on too much burden. Each
day is me studying Objective reasoning to its limits, and trying so hard not to fall into
the drunken Subjective reasoning of the fools around me. Blame, boo,hoo me. How
totally boring that one is.

Study the problem people. Solve it. Not ignore it. The great 24 trillion dollar joke about
to unfold in this election. Out of balance and control. Government shut down every 45
days. Bigger, growth model. Its all a lie. Derivatives market exploding upwards in to
the quadrillion dollar ranges. Artificial. In danger. Time to scale back.

Every person in America has a role to play. Accountability starts with you. Once you
reign in your own insecurities, your not forcing them onto others. Once its civic
collective efforts, its about keeping the wealthy in check. Distribution of wealth is
about equality for all, not just the 4% elite. So that envy is kept in check. There is
more than enough to go around. Inflation is so unjustified.

Im not jealous or envious of anyone. I have no peers or heroes. My understanding
of history, politics, religion are free of the stigma others put on them. So I dont
have to live any lies or hide from them. Face it all every day. Solve as I go. All
that is left are absolutes I have to work around. Mostly ones humanity created to
trick itself. Social concepts that live in shrouded ignorance. Taboo.

Less is more, and yet excess is all the rage. 170 million following Tik Tok? Such a
mindless service of distraction. Tells you how many people will starve to death if
the slightest thing goes wrong. Stay at home, hide from reality, someone else will
take care of you? That ruined Japan these last 30 years.

Its not about being popular, its about survival, and more. Quality of life. Which means
its civic because you cant avoid your neighbors. Too bad most of them are so stupid
now they cant see beyond there grasp. Take, not give.

Break the cycle. Evolve. Stop making this a George Orwell moment.

January 5th, 2024

New year, same old problems, and VA is very happy with it
Had not been posting the last few months due to health issues. Did a brief
stint with Podcast only to find politics of the crowd tiring. Plenty of people
with private agendas, not near enough to focus on singular goals. So I held
back on public arguing only because the people doing it were not going any
where. Not like that.

The RAC decided in its Sept 2023 minutes that veterans such as myself did
not deserve or rate respect. They left out the public comments names so that
these people could be ignored. Only the committee warranted attention. Which
could not be further from the truth. They didnt pay $1,000 to be there, VA covered
there cost. Only to pull back and hide. Cowards. So to VA Im just "Male veteran"
which the old RAC would never do. Just keeps getting worse.

For me, Ive found answers. The situation changes and I run into snags. Over all
Ide say Im on top of things like very few out there. Dont have to prove it. Just
out live them. That should say plenty. Im not looking at surgeries or invasive
procedures. For now, its about keeping balance. Which would be easier if I
could get a few pounds off.

All year long Sec of VA Denis McDonough dodged real questions and put on a
show like he cares. The ugly truth is, he is a political pawn playing dirty, and
vets are just cattle to him. Too important to even answer emails himself. Which
Im sure is because all the liability law suits he would face, as he has no intention
of helping PACT act veterans get better ratings. Too many now. VA cant pay the
70% or higher payouts, and is finding ways to cut those.

Around the hill, the new attitude is - unless you have big money or your a celebrity
then you dont matter. They are above everyone. Anything goes, and it does. The
vets are islands of one. Easily ignored. Pompous, snide, and looking for hand outs.
Cant and wont pull together.

Social media is a huge joke. VA Facebook is a wasteland of pointless commentary
and hackers waiting to ambush vets. A mere formality with VA.

News.VA.gov is ignored, and public comments there blown off.

Media is still groveling at Bidens feet looking for favors. Only the wealthy matter.
They have zero interest in veteran opinions unless they are puff pieces. You
can say American media is very Orwellian and filled with double speak. As the
poor bare out 40% inflation. Kept from the general public, tough luck.

So people like me are left to forage for scraps, struggle, and watch others resort
to pure criminal intent with aid from local law enforcement. As the local wealthy
make there moves to drive people off land, and spread there drug rings out to pay for
much of it. Here, big farms are organized crime as they hire thugs to do the dirty
work, and double as mob muscle. Then off to church like the fake Christians they
are. See, they claim they are aiding less fortunate. What it really is, is indentured
servitude where they cant fight back or leave. Trapped, and taking it out on the
fellow poor around them. Misdirected anger. Just what the wealthy want. Tricks.

Its this way at all levels now. Wealthy playing dirty, and tricking people. Empty
promises, and stalling tactics till people just die off. Its no longer survival, its
about cashing out before the collapse. Take what is left.

Living on less? That comment is always meant as a insult to the poor. The people
saying it view people like me as cattle, and how I dont matter. People dont even
care what there personal self image is any more. Because its gods will? It sure
the hell is not. That some are more equal than others? Really? The chosen and
the not. Thats what the Nazis thought and people did not like it 4 years in. See,
that when it matters - when your in a pit with 100,000 other bodies. Only, its not
them. Burning, gas, bullets, and such - that is what is next for the poor.

America let it happen. Most are pushing people around them to the head of the
line at the slaughter house. Not getting, your still in line, You may delay it but
you die a cowards death when it comes, as you stalled knowing its coming.

The civil war isnt coming, its been going on for 2 years now. The poor have been
fighting it every day. Surrounded by parasites and opportunist of the wealthy
hoping to cheat us. Its been a land grab. Push home prices to 8 times annual
salaries so people cant keep them. Tax people out. Reduce what is left to
community homes to hang on, cramped, crowded, ugly.

Remember, you expect mercy from those you dont show it to. Spend two years
pricing food, commodities, utilities, medical care, property, and such out of
our ranges. The tell us to live on less. You cant take that back or live it down
when these people organize. Will be any time now.

Kindness, something America was once known for. Its gone. Those that cashed
out were poking sticks in the wounds of the poor. Laughing, We didnt forget it.
We know what you plan to do, take it further like the Nazis did. When you finally
step over that line, do not beg for the mercy you did not show. Not everyone is
stupid or waiting to die like cattle.

Just because you dont feel pain, doesnt mean you wont. The people around you
know something is wrong. Those inflicting pain are narcissist animals and they
will keep right at it with zero remorse. So the reactions to them will be sudden,
and over the top. Even wives and husbands turning on each other knowing that
a line has been crossed. Its too late by then, people pushed when they should
have stopped. That is 2024.

The wealthy created all this hate, and it has to go some where. Didnt have to happen.
Could have been avoided. Only, too many cowards out there that felt ignoring this
would work. Good luck with that, when the mob shows up on your door steps. They
wont care about any rules or facts. Mob rules.

What is wrong with you people? Really?

October 13th, 2023

30 days later - contempt for the veterans that attended the RAC
meeting in DC Sept 7th, 8th
Was not going to say anything to the committee about when it post the Transcripts
of the meeting. Turns out, its not transcripts. Its abbreviated minutes where people
who spoke to the committee are reduced to Male - Female vets. Arrogant snide
committee members want there names in lights, people not on the committee are
insulted into Male and Female vet designations. Cowards.

The RAC of long ago was never this cowardly. Transcripts and public comments had
some value. This groups is a bunch of self serving cowards looking for notoriety for a
very meager mediocre job. If anything threatens that, play it down. I called the committee
out mildly, and I should have been much more brutal. Because they damn sure didnt
get the point.

Its too late to get any more comments on the VA RAC news release page on va.gov.
They counted on that. But, I pounded them regardless.

September 16th, 2023
Trip to DC - the Sept RAC meeting - Overpayment of benefits?
Been trying to actually interact with the Sec of VA Denis McDonough since Feb 2022
and it wasnt till September 7th it happened. At 8:10am in front of 810 Vermont street.
Got out of his vehicle, secret service escorting him. Oddly, sees me and Ed Bryan -
walks over to us. I didnt pour it on because so far he was being pleasant. But, I did
tell him what had gone on the last year and trying to interact with him. So he put my
name, number, and email in his cell phone. Took pictures with Ed and I. Then left.
Im sure he deleted me from his phone just as fast.


Alot happened those two days in DC. Ed Bryan and I had teamed up once more like
the old days. So we got to witness things and compare notes.

Right off the bat they switch up the executive discussion to 9am. Deputy Sec Guy
Kiyokawa addressed the RAC. Was about 30 minutes. Really wasnt sweeping or
even interesting. Then came the photo shoot with public affairs. Denise Nichols did
manage to talk them into a shot with him and the veterans in the room. So I ended
up in a committee photo with him. Then talked to him afterwards. Another blow off.

First thing that got me. No water bottles by the doors. 99 outside and it was 77
in the room. When asked, Karen Block said they didnt have money for it. Really?
Its gotten so bad they cant spring $10 or less for water? Yet, later they could give
out 8x10 prints of the photos with Deputy Sec Guy to everyone? Hmmm.

It was lively on the 7th. But, frustrating. the DOD serum repository flat lied about
the HIV 1988, 1989 cryo samples. Because up till recently they claimed written
consent had to attained. That was the major hurdle for 20 years to my pre post
blood sample DNA sequencing. Amplify the red blood cell DNA left in the serum
for sequencing. Was livid with them about the bluff. Took it up with Mr. Darpa after
his presentation. Feasible? He agreed.

Ed and I left to head over to the Senate. New game, we dont do walkins. I had tried
to schedule 2 weeks out with Bernie Sanders, Laura took the call. Wrote the scheduler
who ignored me. Just like I told Laura he would do. We show up, inflexible. Personally,
Bernie long forgot the promises he made at the CDC conference in 1999 in Atlanta.
His most recent acts have been to turn away GWI legislation. Cost too much. But,
this is the new Senate where they just dont have to deal with the public any more.
No more walkins is purely for the wealthy, and keep the poor at bay. Sell outs.

The evening VES session with the RAC is sad. About 6 of us in the room asking to
speak over and over. I think 53 were online, with about 6 pushing to speak. I really
got to dominate this portion. My name came up alot after that. But, I dont think the
committee got the points. The trap they are in with ORD, PP, OMB. But, it goes well
enough that several of us are invited to dinner afterwards. At least that was social
and no one got ugly.

Day 2 was much more frustrating. So much effort being put into the GWI IDC 10
code update with the CDC. There was so much more that could have been done.
The committee slowed to a crawl and it just got annoying. Even the mention of using
the NAS which really outraged me. Did the public comments and the event closed
on a cold note. Chairman went cold too. Figures, pressure is off when the mikes
go off.

I could say so much more, but Im still really tired. Built a scrapbook of the 4 days
in DC. Hit all the usual haunts. Ed and I got familiar once more with all the areas
we used to run around to. Arlington as well. But, it had been so hot all that time
that it took some of the fun out. Most of the mall area is in repair. Lincoln memorial
was all tore up. The whole area had a run down vibe. Union Station was just down
right depressing. No one was in the grass at the mall in front of the Capital. It was
empty in front of the White house with a much bigger fence.

Then Saturday as we are heading home the Military Times springs a OIG report that
Gulf war veterans have been over paid $5 million. Really? Because I dont even know
anyone that got a 3.317 rating decision. This is a insulting fabrication. To demonize
us. Sec of VA knew this talking to Ed and me, Deputy Sec of VA, VA CMO, certain
committee members, and others knew Thursday. Made sure we didnt have a chance
to dispute it during the meeting.

All said and done, I think I upstaged the show. My 2nd big meeting with them in one
year that I played a big part they wanted to play down. In February it was the powerpoint
and this one the multiple times to speak during the VES. I left a a mark. But, VA isnt
about progress so this was a huge let down afterwards. No real progress. Like with
publications and statistical reports. The pre post genome project. 3.317. PACT act
issues.I really felt cheated heading back to Texas.

At least for now I have a fresh feel for DC, and the old haunts. What has changed and
what hasnt. 26 years of this. Just like the old days in some ways when we confronted
the IOM Gulf War treatment meetings in 2000. 2 years before the RAC even began. This
has been a VERY long run for me. Still just as frustrating as ever.

August 22nd, 2023

Sept 7th, 8th RAC meeting in DC - PACT act fall out
Been busy on Facebook despite the fact VA has not taken care of the hackers that
still haunt there webpage. Little trolls sitting out there that would crumble up into a
ball if they every ran into one of there victims. Teens and weirdos. Sad.

I called the RAC about a week before they posted the meeting in the Federal Register.
The committee had been silent since February, nothing. But, I was on top of this and
put it out there for the others.

Sec of VA Denis McDonough is still dodging me. Full coward. All the while he goes
on playing up the PACT act and VA like he is doing us favors. He is not. He knows the
PACT act is failing on a huge scale and is fine with that. Terminal get help. The rest
of us get squat unless your OIF from 2033 to present. Even then its not going to find
much on purpose. No real evidence with the Toxic Exposure exams.

Im active and all over this. Hammering News.va.gov all I can. But, media is state
controlled and they dont write about grumpy vets. Only pro-government fluff. All is
well in America, we never wrong our vets.

All the while my near death experience in the civilian ER is being punished. I got the
visit authorized, and yet VA wont pay the bill. So after 90 days Scott and White is trying
to slip me the $14,000 bill Tri-west wont pay. Adverse benefits issue my ass. I gave
them the approval authorization code over and over. Im positive that Sec of VA Denis
McDonough is behind this. Cripple me with a huge bill after turning me away from
a walkin that would not have cost me a dime. Punish me for using VA medical care.

VA keeps getting worse for me each month. Problem after problem not being solved.
A heart issue building on me they wont address. Wait me out, let me die. Keep me
from primary care just long enough for natural causes to take over. I cant get seen
when I need to. Prove the PVC's Im throwing are real and by the hour. My monitor
shows that. Sent in proof. Cant go the ER, they wont pay the bill when they should.

Where is the justice in any of this? Where is Congress? Where is the IG? It should
NOT be this hard for a combat veteran.

June 25th, 2023
Layers of deception / corruption haunt every facet of our country
When you run off every person left that tried to save the system, all you have
after that are the people who made it worse. Thats what we have across capital
hill and VA.

I made a huge stink about the RAC in February. The meeting was a disaster and
it showed in Stars and Stripes article about them. They wanted so much to pretend
that meeting never took place. For 30 days they said nothing on the RAC website
till I spoke up. Then few hours later, poof. That material was up. Only to have the RAC
website go stagnant from there on. June 25th, no new public meetings listed or had
happened that I knew about. 4 months and silence? No agenda?

So I wrote the committee and Sec of VA to this effect. That I guess they went back
to the GWVITF secret meetings of 2010 format. Decide policy without the vets.
Even worse, the NGWRC knows about and is in on it. Silence. Crickets.

Oh, Sec of VA Denis McDonough knows me. As they had to contact Waco VAMC
to get me into care since walkins arent allowed and they dont pay for ER visits when
you go there. Katie was NOT amused having to call me and schedule me the next
day to see the doctor. The clinic deeply resented I once again circumvented protocol
and policy. But, my heart condition is very real to me and they just want to wait me
out long enough for it to go terminal. Opps, autopsy showed this - how did we miss

My ideas for the Toxic Exposure Pathology Center have merit. Ridding Walkins did
NOT improve VA care. In fact, when I went in this week to the Waco VAMC the parking
lot by the clinic was almost empty. Plenty of spaces. Waiting room and labs had like
one person in there. Was like that much of the day. Oh yes, this is working real well
for VA turning away Walkins. Plenty of time for others things. No waiting, because your
not in line any more.

House and Senate are completely corrupt. VA knows they wont look into them. Service
groups gave up. IG gave up. GAO gave up. VA is free and clear of oversight. Which Sec
of VA Denis McDonough certainly has run with. Media? State controlled now. They only
publish what VA will let them or cut them off. Groups like the RAC cave into VA rather than
risk black balling like me. Didnt make them better.

Google is still pretending Gulflink.org doesnt exist, claiming they cant find the file on
the server. Total lies. Google has become a puppet of the rich, cutting out content that
makes the rich look bad. Monopoly, censorship.

So Im struggling with my neurology and healthcare trying to make sense of the dam
muscle spasms - tremors. Vegas nerve? Long Covid? How do you prove it? VA does
not want to even try. POTS, good luck proving that.

My doctor does not think Im a idiot, as I make him look good. On paper much of my
pathology is against the trends. So he doesnt have to work hard at the parts that
are non standard. Follow protocol till something weird gets me. Because VA is not
about being creative. Follow the letter of the law and push the vet out. Which is why
we need a pathology center with open minds, take a real chance. Nope, cant have that.

26 years, Im not stupid. Been at the fore front. People can say other wise till the
cows come home, other wise VA would have not allowed my Powerpoint presentation
to the committee in February. Boy did they shut down on that one.

You people need me, not the other way around. Im still trying, give me credit for that.
Even locally, with these meth heads right next to me trying to trip everyone up and
pit them against each other. Every where I go are assholes making sure than nothing
gets done, and they plan to take everyone with them. Bluff and BS. I on the other
hand stay focused on my projects and laugh at the stupidity Im dealing with here and
in DC. Boy, do you people not get me at all.

My root cellar is almost complete, and its 17 tons of complications coming to a end.
Its practical in this global warming climate no one wants to fix. You know what? I can
fix that too. Put containers on all aircraft that spray a fine film of inert dust molecules
out the back of the engines. Couple of weeks and the seeding will drop global air temps
2 degrees. Water vapor con trails do that now. Take it further. Create some great sun
sets too. Water vapor isnt enough on its own. But, 3,000+ flights a day puts alot up
there all the time.

Better off without me? Think again. Put me out front and demand they listen? I will
get results. Right now, nothing in DC. Silence is consent. I want to change that. The
people refusing me have got nothing. Ive got dozens of ideas, and experience.

April 24th, 2023

Hey, while we are at it - lets kill off VA walk-in care and just make
you go elsewhere for medical care - period
This is the service groups failing us in the extreme. Sucked up to Sec of VA
Denis McDonough and look what Skeletor stuck it to you.

With a walkin, you were at least seeing your regular doctor about your issues.
Now, surprises come up your starting with a stranger every time. Save cost?
Yourve created chaos and caused greater long term expenses and deaths.

This isnt managed care. Your doing all you can to drive veterans into insured
civilian care with your bloated $296 billion nightmare. What? A bigger golden
parachute for Skeletor when they make him resign?

I had a taste of this April 21st with a walkin gone very wrong. They could not
wait to turn me away at the Waco VAMC for anything I begged for. We dont
want you. That really came across. Forced me to the Baylor ER down the road
where I spent the bulk of the day fighting pneumonia among other things. Had this
since Monday and after 5 days there was nothing left of me. Only, its on Waco
to follow this up and Waco VA shuts down for the weekend. Nothing.

Try to get to the ER in Temple Saturday and of all things a cop in McGregor
decides it time to revenue hunt a stop sign on a far back road while Im coughing
up a storm telling him Im on the way to the ER. Guy is some kind of weird anti
social jerk amused at my delimna and mocks me. Gives me a ticket rather than
a warning. Unless I let him add to my expenses with a EMS call on top of this?
He was only offering scenarios that added zeros to my cost. I get a sadist on a
back road that predates the sick and dying for money?

Get into the ER, and doctor hears the fluid in my lungs. They up the dosage and
'type at pharmacy. First pill was like being hit by a baseball bat. But, at least
it starts working quickly. Drive around McGregor on the way back knowing its a
shitty little speed trap. Even the people at the Temple ER desk mock the McGregor
cops as gold diggers.

Couple of days and fluids dropped off. Only, this is all a dead end now. Ive heart
and lung damage from the pneumonia that needs documenting. What is the recovery
method in all this? Im not being managed, on my own guessing what to do and
no one to talk too? Because urgent care is isolated to the ER and the VA clinic wont
see me for months in advance. Nothing in between? Send a email to My healthe
website only to find they send short emails saying "we forwarded your message".
Didnt put me in any where, didnt actually help me?

Nothing about the last last week was less than a living hell, and at every step
I found cold indifferent people sort of enjoying this scenario. More like predatory
behavior and ways to make people spend more money for less. They all seemed
quite eager to create more expensive situations since its not them needing care.
All the while, all my hard work with the Waco VAMC the last two years has been
washed away, and rest to zero. Im back in over my head.

This is all you Sec of VA Denis McDonough? You suck as a human being. Youve
made VA medical care costly, bloated, and much harder to access. Come a year
from now you can GUARANTEE people will demand your resignation. Once youve
screwed VA so badly it implodes. Top down economics? Try DRACONIAN!!!!!

I know you have a disaster on your hands and this ends badly. Just sad how many
have to die now to prove it. There is blood on your hands you ghoul. You will cover this
up like most criminals. But, not till taking it all with you. Which is in motion.

April 10th, 2023

War Horse Symposium? The moment a small group shut
out others to make DOD / VA look goo††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††† d - when there not†

For weeks Ive been hammering VA on the News.va.gov website in its public
comments. Trying to get points across that the media wont help with. American
media has completely turned on veterans themselves so they can grovel at
the governments feet. Play up the PACT act, and report all is well when its not.
Really hammered the War Horse Symposium webpage.

Put the word out about the War Horse Symposium thinking that there would
be some kind of veteran showing. Only, I found out the whole day was a total
shut out of the virtual crowd. This was a prechoosen, hands elected group of
people that would put on a dog and pony show. They would not alienate the
VA and DOD folks attending. Jon Stewart would go passive, very mild to protect
his select group. No one online like me was given a chance all day. You could
not even tell I was there. Not even a chat bar or attendance bar. I was though.
Fuming at the arrogance.

I found Sec of VA Denis McDonough offensive at best. His body language and his
contempt was all to obvious to me. He had nothing to worry about. No one there
was going to ask him any hard questions or grill him. I asked a Q&A about
the need for a Toxic Exposure Pathology Center and did a screenshot of the
page to prove I asked. Nothing. They pointed out Patricia Kime in the audience
in front of him, and I emailed it to her. Nothing. All is well, nothing to worry about.
Maybe for those there, not for us online.

Maybe the War Horse was something a while back, this one was a joke about
what it offered. It was a very small monopoly trying to protect its position and
not upset its over lords. 9 hours of nothing. Even less so, it was a waste of my
time and 5 gigs of my internet. Bandwidth I needed for other things.

When I think of the War Horse in the future, I will always equate it with this
photo of Sec of VA Denis McDonough. Tented hands scowling at people.
They were there to make him look good. Grovel. Keep vets like me from
asking him questions he has dodged for months. If someone said that there
was a problem, not here. All the while I hammered the News.va.gov website
webpage about this event and it would not help vets - it didnt.

Thanks for nothing.


March 22nd, 2023

VA PACT act, VA's new mission statement, Iraqibacter,
and the medias pro-government approach

So very much happened this last month. But, with Google and VA blocking
this website - posting her is pointless. Put the attention into Facebook which
hasnt really been my buddy either.

March 6th the RAC took down all evidence the Feb 7,8,9th meeting took place.
It stayed this way till March 16th when I called this out. Within hours they had
the meeting materials up on there website. They were testing to see who was
paying attention.

VA had been posting PACT act articles right and left at News.va.gov of which
I wrote volumes in every single public comments. they tried to block me at first
and found out Im real quick to go the IG. After that I got out but the delays would
last days some times. I knew the more I posted and posted key words the search
engines would pick this up. Ide be every where eventually even if its Kilroy style.

They held a PACT act event March 18th 2023 here in Waco. They made sure not
to post it any where till 4 days before the meeting. Then the media had a limited
output 2 days before. None contacted me about it. I was excluded. Killeen Daily
herald, Waco Tribune, Channel 10, Channel 44 who knew me wanted to write a
pro government article about how well things are going. Everything is fine, it
all works, run and apply, no loopholes or problems. Garbage media.

Ive no doubt any more the Sec of VA Denis McDonough is playing dirty and made
sure I was excluded. You can bet your ass there is a inter office memo to William
Negron in Temple asking him to do things this way. They cant have any negative
veteran opinions, and comments effecting the event.

I have been distracted in all this with Hackers on the VA Facebook page, a local
drug ring messing with my neighborhood, and medical problems that Im trying to
resolve as my new claim goes forward. I finally accepted the possibility of a TBI
injury with over a dozen extreme moments I had written off. The WRIISC in DC
was pretty sure of this and Im in a TBI study now. It would explain the very specific
types of problems, recall, migraines, tinnitus, and such over the last 3 decades.
My overt disdain towards PTSD, and this is keeping me from dealing with this.
I wont accept PTSD, but Im fighting TBI needlessly.

Im learning more and more about the problematic PACT act issues like the QTC
contractor setting up C&P exams. People think they are scammers, and for 4 days
so did I. Would not answer the phone, didnt know the numbers. Talked to them
Sunday morning and got scheduled. Only to find they are also hindered by the
hackers placing false claims. They have to screen those out. Person is over
worked trying to make up for the back log.

Hackers took over the VA Facebook cite. Used my name and image to try and
scam others. Went after that. Then there badgering commentary in Facebook
to drive veterans off. Took it up with Sec of VA, and he passed me to Media
Relations who said tough luck. Well, after a week VA Facebook posted a Identity
verification badge to help with this. I was getting person after person removed.
Fakers like this one teenager from Yemen posing as Gen Rainey. People with
zero friends and zero followers or content. Called them out. Ugh.

At every step, Im learning more and more about the current problems between
VBA and VHA with the PACT act. Because Im living it. Without the Toxic Exposure
Pathology Center I cant get that added physical evidence that would really help
my claim. Its all on me to make what there is work by sheer will power and
self reporting which is useless.Ive got 2 exams pending shortly and Im sure they
wont be of much help. C&P isnt on my side and damn sure wont explain any
problems or loopholes - they arent allowed to volunteer. Both with be visual exams
and what I add to that. Ugh....

Im all over the place saying Sec of VA Denis McDonough as a staunch critic of
him. Local media is cowering from this, not wanting to upset VA or executive
branch. I really feel Im dealing with veteran haters in the local media. People
who want to see veterans fail. The odd thing is 3 of them claim to be veterans
and from what I can tell - they resent others more than want to help them.

The end result is things take a decade to surface rather than now. I will be vindicated
later on for what happened now. But for now, Im going forward trying to make a highly
flawed law some how work for me. VA doesnt care, and wants to play dirty.

Millions will miss out, but how will we know if this is all being kept a secret. VA is
pretending the only person complaining is me, and if they ignore me long enough
I will just go away. Only Im ramping up rather than down. These people really dont
get me at all. I guess my 122 IQ is a sore spot with very mediocre people who
seem to only live to oppose ideas.

March 7th, 2023

VA censorship total now and VA Inspector General helping
them do this

VA chose to ignore my presentation to the RAC, and even when I ended up
in Stars and Stripes in February. So I one upped my game by commenting
in any news.va.gov article that would apply. Got quite few up. Then again,
wasnt much of a line. Maybe 3 of us per article at most.

Then on the Feb 2023 RAC press release they stopped my last comment.
Had a felling they would try again in other places.

The Feb 6th article is "Accessing new toxic exposure health care and benefits"
and below are the comments I tried to upload. Server just pretends I dont exist.

So sent this to the OIG who will fail me once more. From there I will take this
over to the Department of Justice and several House / Senate subcommittees.
Because this one draws a line in the sand. Not like VA is being over whelmed
with public comments. But, this is now getting rid of any unwanted comments
of any kind. The true mark of censorship and a totalitarian regime that does
not follow the constitution any more. If citizens are not allowed to speak up,
this isnt a free society any more.

I know the IG will fail me, and that this one has to happen for VA and others
to silence the veterans from here out. Of all things, over the Toxic Exposure
Pathology Center. Which means I knocked that one out of the park and VA
has to kill it off. This one changes the entire game with VA ands brings in
millions of veterans that would not been able to before.

The real fight has now begun:



This is what I submitted that they kept blocking:

This is still the same problem over and over.

These registries and such are reliant on rudimentary medicine. There is nothing
advanced about the labs and imaging. Like with ABHOR, your basically getting a
10 minute exam plugged into the Genesis portal data system. At best a chest
xray and pulmonary function test.
The PACT Act needs revision and refinement as does environmental healths
programs. Because they miss one critical aspect, true tissue collection. Meaning
inner tissue resection for toxicology and Pathology workup. True proof of toxic
VA needs to implement a Toxic Exposure Pathology Center for all these veterans
so it can do more than conventional exams. It's time to use a variation of forensic
medicine and dig deeper to show possible physiological issues rather than merely
suggest them.
Right now, every registry program will fail to provide details of toxic exposures other
than survey and self report. Blood labs won't even find much unless they push
harder than Chem 7 and such. Damn sure won't find heavy trace elements as they
don't look at anything but specified standard markers.

VA is ignoring 26 years of my hard work and sacrifice in all this for no good reason.
They know I'm right, as did the VA Research Advisory Committee I pitched this all
to. With good reason, I ran the entire gambit this last year and it failed me. All of it.

Even after begging the War Related Illness and Injury Study Center to do a fatty
tissue resection for full spectrochemical analysis. The system is not flexible in this.
So millions will find out what I already know. Only, another year will have passed for
them while getting no where.
Sec of VA knows all this, and just plans to ignore it. Let things run there course. He
knows as I've pointed each step out this last year. Then presented my findings to the
RAC in a PowerPoint they are now blowing off. Ended up in Stars and Stripes over
it, so what? Really?

My suggestions are valid. I should not have to keep repeating all this in these public
comments. I've got alot more to add but for now I'm sticking with just this part.

March 3rd, 2023

The infamous RAC powerpoint presentation I did in 2006
People tell me nothing, and so I dont know what files are missing from my
website. Been a lot of missing files the last few months. My website had been

Its one of my best Powerpoints from 2006, and people are looking for it. Its
been down for no telling how long now. Mystery file.

This one really tells a story, 28 slides. Really graphic and flashy. 1.7 megs.

Well, its back up.

February 21st, 2023

Toxic media destroying America
Try as I might, mediocrity has a firm grip on the small minds that write for the American
media. I was asked to write letters to the editor last week because to these bozos a
story like mine isnt worth telling. A veteran that was asked to present to a federal committee,
and was in Stars and Stripes over it. Why that happens every day and was never worth

Its no mistake, American media is either so incredibly lame it cant tell what they truth is
any more or its part of a very sinister plot against the population. Because it set out to
deliberately tank the VA RAC meeting in Hawaii and it did so. The same thing with the
PACT act, and the failure of ABHOR. Only say positive things. Think only happy thoughts.

You dont want me being negative? What did you offer that was better? No news? That
Gulf war veterans should not be seen or heard? Thats discrimination. Bold face, in your
face, some people are created more equal than others. What is your message?

Killeen Daily Herald, Temple Daily Telegram, Waco Tribune, Gatesville Messenger,
Channel 10 Waco, Channel 44 Waco, and others that I walked into repeatedly up
to last week have decided any story is worth printing but mine, and Gulf war veterans
plight. That the Secretary of VA never did any of us wrong, and is the only person that
deserves media. How could I possibly be right about anything? Im not rich, famous,
and all over the net like I used to be. The only opinion that matters is the government
as they never wronged Gulf war vets.

So they win. Silenced a poor destitute veteran fighting for his life. That my idea of a
Toxic Exposure Pathology Center is just stupid. It should be statutes to each of the
media directors locally who are gods among us. What was I thinking that veterans
rights would come above theres. That any veterans opinion matters any more. What
did a combat veteran ever do for this country? The local media sure proved that to
me the last 2 months. How dare I think I have value in this country.

February 17th, 2023

Toxic Exposure Pathology Center, Waco Texas?
Email broadband:

Dear Sec of VA Denis McDonough and RAC I think Ive come up with a answer to the issue of the PACT act, ABHOR, environmental agents, WRIISC, Gulf war registry loop holes. There all designed to fail for one reason. They will never collect hard evidence of toxic exposures if they never take physical tissue samples that would prove it. Diagnostics, back up the docs nation wide with second opinions like the AFIP did. I had a long talk with the VABBB in Boston yesterday. Theoretical's. Long story short, it cant be expanded or adapted to function like the AFIP. Try as I might, I cant find a resource within VA that for now could take on the monumental task of this nation wide. With millions of possible samples that might pour in if this were to kick off. Then it occurred to me, repurpose a asset that isnt being utilized correctly. A while back I had a tour of the Doris Miller VAMCs Center of Excellence. The tour was of the interior and staff. By the end of the tour I was quite displeased. Dr. Seim used the word somatic research in his presentation and that set off alarm bells. One of the doctors I think was my former general clinic doctor who only ordered drug screenings every time I came in, was a hateful person with no compassion. Because of him my foot tumor surgery dragged out another year. After the tour the clinic would not respond to my emails or me. I realized this was a VA dead end and a waste of resources because I told them about my potential TBI and they showed no interest. This is a terrible waste of the expensive freezers, and genetic screening equipment. Why not repurpose this facility in a more veteran friendly format that could benefit us all nation wide. Its centrally located, fairly new, mostly done, and would not need very much to make it happen. Turn a negative into a positive. Create the pathology center that could answer lots of hard lines questions about Toxic exposures. I have much more to add, but for now - Im putting this on the table. Thank you for your time and consideration. Sincerely Kirt P. Love Director, DSBR former member VA ACGWV http://gulflink.org https://www.va.gov/gulfwaradvisorycommittee/

February 16th, 2023

Joint Pathology center? VABBB? Where do we go for the pathology
of the tissue samples

Message to VA, RAC:

To whom it may concern In 2000 I began my fight with the Armed Forces institute of Pathology after visiting with them at Walter Reed Army Hospital. I could not get Florabell Mullick to catalog Gulf War tissues samples. Even though they shuttered there doors in 2011, they pretty much had closed down by 2003. So by 2005 I had been repeatedly telling the VA Research Advisory Committee the need to address tissue sample collection issues with the pending death of Wade George from a brain tumor in 2006. That the AFIP was closing. VA announced the Gulf War VA Biorepository trust in 2006. But, it was strictly brain bank and not broad spectrum tissues collection. To be moved to Boston and later be dubbed the VABBB. I still have the original powerpoint of it in Dallas Nov 2006. Despite all my best efforts, what little tissue collection has taken place has been brain or cancer driven. Even with the WRIISC and many other entities. Which when put to the test in 2022 I could not get a tissue resection done by anyone no matter how hard I tried. If your going to be using the PACT act, ABHOR, Gulf War Registry, WRIISC, Toxic Exposure screening, - your going to need some form of physical tissue sample collection other than surgical cancer biopsy. You need advanced pathology bordering on forensic toxicology to looks for foreign physical substances in veterans tissues. I pitched this at the Hawaii RAC meeting February 9th 2023. Im still quite serious about this and have begun calling around asking anyone in the VA / DOD infrastructure willing to champion this issue. My concern keeps coming back to this, everyone throws the DOD Joint Pathology Center in Maryland at me. This is DOD and I dont feel will be impartial. Soon as they get there hands on the samples it will be privatized or skewed in some way. There is a need for a separate entity to deal with PACT act, ABHOR, Gulf war, and similar ventures when it comes to cutting edge tissue collection for military environmental health exposures. Im not sure expanding the VABBB would be in our best interest. But, I have nothing better, and already approached them. They seem open to this. This has gone on for 23 years now for me, and I feel too much time has been wasted on this. Tens of thousands have died that any useful data is lost. Countless autopsies that had been written off as substance abuse or other similar elements wherein liver damage might have been Leishmaniasis or other exotics rather than just cirrhosis. Many many autopsies that had a biased cause of death. I still feel the original AFIP tissue collection has valuable Gulf war samples that needs to be cataloged in some useful manner. It wasnt just brain and neck samples as implied by Mike Kilpatrick of DHSD at that time. Thank you for your time and patience.

February 15th, 2023

The ongoing threat to the US blood supply by undetected pathogens
Message to VA, RAC:

One of the things the Military have not taken serious is the contamination of the blood supply by troops donations even to this very day. 32 years later. There was a FDA blood banking meeting in DC December 11th 2003. I did a powerpoint that blew them away. In 2004 the FDA, CDC, and others should have banned American troops returning from Iraq, and Afghanistan from ever giving blood again. That Leishmaniasis was running unchecked in the ranks. Troops with black skin lesions that were told it would resolve on its own. First it was 110, then 200, 400, and then 1,100 cases that were reported in 2004. I could not get a honest answer out of DHSD and deployment health at WRAIR about how bad it was. The diagnostics for this were not up to the job. The dormancy factor of visceral Leishmaniasis is such that it may go undetected for decades. Its nearly a genetic pathogen still masked in the cell bodies as a double nucleus. Very hard to prove or disprove. We never fully disproved this in Gulf war I vets, and how many have died of this over the years. Largely, no preserved tissue samples other than the AFIP which never cataloged this. Only by genetic screening this would have surfaced. Those that contract Leishmaniasis through the blood supply have no recourse and only Walter Reed Army Hospital to verify the test. Which just isnt done. Personally, I feel no Gulf War era veteran should ever give blood to the general supply as they do not screen for these type pathogens even to this day. With its up to 40 year dormancy its just not worth it. When I said my powerpoints were famous, this is the one that set the bar. Listed below. This is one major thing the PACT act, and all the environmental health registries will go on missing the mark on. A very uncertain number for a orphan illness that Americans dont take serious at all these last 20 years. Much like the West Nile Virus we brought back from Iraq in 1991 that was in the blood supply. Sincerely Kirt P. Love
†Director, DSBR ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ https://slideplayer.com/slide/4228697/ December 11th 2003 Contamination of the American Blood supply

February 14th, 2023

VA Leadership does not welcome veteran input, critique, or
complaints of the PACT act role out

Had been wondering about the last two months on the PACT act. Then it occurred  
to me. VA is VERY happy with the PACT act. A little too much so. They know it has
several glaring flaws they want to keep as is. Its too early in to change these, and fix
them since they want the outcomes. For it to take a year for the rejections to come
in after the media lost interest. To isolate the complaints one at a time, drive them
into submission. Pick them off.

Started with me, to drive me off in plain sight. Failed me, so what. Keep that wall up
and make sure no one listens. See if the House and Senate committees remain apathetic
to individuals. Wait us out. Save more money waiting out millions.

Keep in mind, no VA programs is flawless. How is this one so flawless right now?
Thats just it, this isnt. Just stand on the necks of anyone complaining and make sure
to run them off. That the media will help them do it. No negative reviews.

A program with no veterans complaining at this scale is impossible, unless more than
myself are being silenced the same way. Im the first, most vocal. But, media through
Texas wont help veterans. If the PACT act fails you, its going to be a secret.

February 12th, 2023

Hawaii turnout low at VA meetings on Gulf War illnesses -
Stars and Stripes

This is really frustrating, the article left out a lot and it glossed over my former
committee entirely. Left out my website was being blocked. Made me look
like a fly by night just starting rather than the old crowd dating to the creation
of the RAC in 1998 by law. It ignored former Chairman Jim Binns as did the
committee itself this week. Its a start though.

My powerpoint ( another thing left out ) was a game changer on all levels and
the committee opposed it going in. None of these people came to my aid before
the meeting, and right afterwards went back to silent mode on me.

Goolge scrubbed me so people cant find "Kirt Love" and "Gulflink.org" so if I cant
be found then I dont matter. Im 100% convinced Sec of VA Denis McDonough is
behind this request to help protect his career at my expense. Only, I didnt play
fair and die as he hoped.

Im world famous again. Will take time for people to figure this out. That or Im
murdered shortly to make sure I dont pull off a end run here. Considerable effort
has gone into scrubbing me off the net, and create search rules to circumvent me.
I was everywhere once, and right now Im being made to look like I never was.
World famous in 2003. Now? Cant find me when you look for me. Unless its one
of those scam websites like "checkpeople" implying I have a criminal past and
all kinds of hidden dirt that isnt there. Never would have passed a background
check with the TDEM if I was a criminal flake.

Anyone happy for me with the RAC presentation? Nope, total silence. So much
resentment and cowardice out there. How dare I try to make a difference. No
wonder the GWI issue is stagnant and silent. The real question is now I called
this all out, does Bernie Sanders and the Senate VA committee go on pretending
I dont exist so they can avoid all this. He helped us get PL 105-368 and then the
last 10 years he walked away from us. So far, dodging me just like the Sec of VA.
I was the only one fighting over healthcare and benefits for Gulf war vets, and now
the major flaws in the PACT act. IT FAILED ME.

For now, its a hollow victory. The current RAC got away with horrendous behavior
and implied the meeting was a success. It wasnt. It was a shut out with a very
meager phone in presence. Not a proud moment for VA. Sure bent over backwards
to rob me of my victory with my presentation which was the best of my 26 years
career in this crowd. That I DONT MATTER.

Local media will bend over backwards to punish me for this one. So will the local
VAMC and regional. Because there is no oversight, or compassion left. Gulf war
vets should not be seen or heard. At all cost. Who is really behind that?

February 10th, 2023

Success at the RAC meeting, the ripple effect, then Sec of VA
Denis McDonough sneaks in and out of Waco the same day

Its been a horrid month. Trying so hard to make all this happen since December. Really, 
this all started last February. Running the gambit of every program in VA to the Toxic
exposure screening days before the meeting.

What lead to the invite to speak on the RAC was nothing short of bizarre. Spelled it
out to them. They invite me, then pull back telling me not to read into this. Try to tell
me what to say heading into this, and then tried to gut my powerpoint twice right before
the meeting.

3 days, and they discuss all the things I was asked not to talk about. Only thing that
I wasnt on top of was ILER. No biggie, I had a taste of it already.

Before the presentation, could not get anyone to say my name. After it, few didnt.
Suddenly tissue collection and Long Covid POTS was all the buzz. After my presentation
the committee will never be the same. 30 minutes later, they were ignoring my public
Chronology powerpoint

As I fully expected, they went silent on me right after this. Retaliation for the content
of my presentation. Because, I called on them to rebel against ORD and Policy and
planning. Right the wrongs of Sec of VA Eric Shinseki from 2009 to 2013. There is so
much in my presentation, my best ever. This one is famous now. They hate me for it.

Im driving around Waco taking pictures with my van today as I visit Regional and
directors staff at Doris Miller. Letting them know I filled a IG complaint about me being
kept from the PACT act hiring event. Both pleaded innocence in this but they knew
from prior notice Sec of VA was coming. Others who knew me saw this as a media
opportunity while they grovel at Sec of VA's feet. Pro government media, all is well.
Only, the PACT act failed me and no one cares that is supposed to.

Its clear now, as I was going to the TV stations about the RAC meeting they got the
notice about the Sec of VA coming - and cut me off. veterans arent important? Only
the Sec of VA is. Suck up to him to get them positive attention from there masters.

So here is a page of me saying the PACT act failed me in front of every media source
I could get to today that blew me off.
PACT act failed me - Feb 10 2023

regional office Doris Miller

February 4th, 2023

RAC makes its move to censor me

When someone promises you to speak for 15 minutes, you give them the
courtesy to do so. You publish the agenda to that effect your committed.

The RAC had the nerve Friday evening to tell me to cut my presentation
to 10 slides. No one else, just me. Never mind I timed myself at 30 seconds
a slide and coming in at 12 minutes. Ive been doing these for 23 years now.
Im a professional. Unless people plan to interrupt me.

Well, Im not changing a thing. They will never give me chance again to present
as the committee is filled with ringers out to censor me. As I firmly believe
the Sec of VA is behind this to minimize any damage or messages.

Its the 4th, and the Oahu Veteran Center wont past the RAC flyers, PR
releases, or the new article in Hawaii. In fact, media nation wide does not
seem to want to touch any of this.

What has moved up the ranks of Google is the article by Anthony Hardie
about my committee and the GWVIS reports. Means a lot of people have
seen it and know something is wrong.

What people forget in all of this, each person that knows of this and does not
speak up is aiding a felon. You become a accomplice. So foir instance the
people stropping my public comments on the VA website to articles like
Ther person moderating this page is too terrified to post my remark. Here
it is since he wont approve it:

"No Comments"

Kirt love February 3, 2023 at 8:29 pm - Reply Your comment is awaiting moderation.
Iím one of the presenters and as of this evening theyre already trying to
gut my presentation to censor me. At this point Iím positive the Sec of VA is behind this. He does not want
me discussing many things about VA. Dodged me all year long. Pretty
sure he is the one that asked Google to pull the plug on my website.
Called the White house about it today, senate, congress. This meeting will NOT be like the others. Not another one designed to fail
on purpose. VA Buried my committees findings and silenced it for 13 years now. Itís
doing all it can to censor me now. This is what happens when you remove oversight and Congress walks
away. You get a dysfunctional program that runs, spins in circles for a
decade. Sec of VA Eric Shinseki gutted both Gulf War committees, and VA never
repaired the damage that has been done.

February 3rd, 2023

Calling the White House 9:30am there time Friday

By the White House standards, today as a bad day to call. I kept getting 
routed to the comments section which was closed today. They keep bankers
hours I guess.

In the past a Liaison officer was on premises that you could talk to. They
moved that over to VA who ignores it unless its financial hardship.

So tried to call the White House operator, and argued with two of them for
a few minutes. One sent me to comments which was closed. The other
made it clear that comments was the only option. That it would be open
Tuesday next week.

This makes it official, unless your part of the government - you cant reach
anyone like you used to. Above the law, and out of reach of the common
person. Hurry up and wait?

It wasnt this way with the Clintons, and that is the role model?

Contacted the White House, House and Senate, about
Google blocking my website - I think Sec of VA Denis
McDonough requested it

Its bad enough that the 32 year mark the Gulf war records are still concealed.
Not to be made public till 50 years have passed. By now its a blatant cover
up to protect war criminals that profited for the war. Im the last person left
calling out the 6,000,000 records, and getting rid of me finally puts the war
in the past. A person who owns a military domain name to do so. The only
person to ever do so.

Just as I found out the website had been gutted and started putting content
back up in December, Google stops crawling and claims it cant index me.
Try all I might, the Google tools wont index me even though Godaddy says
Im up. There not responsible for Google and such.

Took me time to figure out what happened, people telling me I had been
hacked. It was more than that. This was out right suppression. Make me look
like I dont exist. 23 years of hard work and dozens of interviews just simply
not there any more. Im being erased.

Sec of VA Denis McDonough has spent the last year dodging me. Im pretty
sure because at the advent of the PACT act I was about to prove a good chunk
of all this coming out is rigged to fail. Same time a NAS report says so about
the Burn Pit Registry ( ABHOR ). In fact, almost a dozen items all year long
as I run the gambit of all these programs that failed me. Then there is the
issue of my former VA advisory committee they want covered up. Forgotten.

Im little more than a political prisoner now in my home. I have no rights and
Im supposed to just stay shut in my house out of the way of others who
do not seem to have anyones best interest at heart. Locally, state, or the
federal level. Im in the way of progress? Who's progress? Certainly not any
of the people that served in the military the last 32 years.

How can I not be alarmed, this is my life. Which has no value apparently. That
23 years of work helping others was stupid of me. How dare I. Really? That
my military service is of no value. War veteran? Means nothing. Then what
does have value right now in the country? Certainly not me.

February 2nd, 2023

The pending RAC presentation in Hawaii, and the toxic media

The RAC wont get one fact at the meeting when I present. I found my own 
medical answers.
In VA's eyes, Im almost normal. Blood labs are almost middle ground now.
Blood Pressure was 126 / 76. I have solid stools. Fully lucid. Full use of
my appendages. Granted there are other issues and this isnt a cure, Im
much more functional that even two years ago. First time in 32 years. At
the age of 58? Never be like before the war, but Im not pricing coffins right
now. ( $600 )
My research paid off, and saved my life. No one cares. Well, my doctor
at VA is impressed if no one else is. He doesnt argue with me on labs or
medicines. He gets Im on to something.

The people Im trying to get this across to dont have answers. That if
anything else my methods treat geriatric conditions, and improve the
quality of life for the elderly if nothing else. Something Im going to take
up with the VA geriatric committee in April.

Stigma, personal bias, arrogance, contempt, apathy. All the hallmarks of
subjective reasoning. While I struggle so hard with objective reasoning.
Am I kidding myself or not? Only when it comes to how low others will sink.
So my own answer is simple, I will out live these folks, and present my
findings when these people are finally out of the way. Which wont be much
longer from the looks of things.

Still leaves my fight over Gulf War healthcare and benefits that no one is
helping with. Whole crowd is fixated on research which is a dead end.
PACT act and ABHOR producing false hopes. No avenues or committees
that even care about any of this.
This crowd needs me, and it will sort of figure that out at this RAC meeting
in a few days. If people dont bury each other in personal commentary, and
singular circular arguments.
Im at the apex of my own career, at what looks like the worst moment to be
there in American history. When people are drowning in apathy, and mean
indifference. Especially the now toxic media with its jaded agendas.
I dont even have to share my results. Im not benefiting from doing so right
now. Im being gracious, and battling a all uphill war over others peoples
egocentric issues. That Im the problem?

People should realize by now Im a force of nature, and ignoring me doesnt
make me go away.
Time will prove me out.

January 31st, 2023

The Toxic Exposures Screening with the Waco VAMC nurse

Did my Toxic Exposure screening over the phone. Its what I was afraid of.
Self report Ice storm messing it up going in, so its going to be done by phone. Without coaching, you have to tell the doctors what you think might be the issue. Then they apply standard medicine to it. This wont find anything using traditional labs. This is designed to fail. I gave this nurse a earful, and gave her the history of SHAD, ionizing radiation, Vietnam, gulf war, OIF, and medical evidence collection among them by program. The most complicated screenings she will ever do was me. H2S, fuming nitric acid, oil well smoke, dusty mustard, recursive compounds, dioxins, industrial pollutants, silicosis, ammonium perchlorate, burning vehicles, CARC paint, diesel fuel, spent vehicle oils, tent heaters, burning EOD demolitions, chemical weapons laying in the open, burning nuclear reactors and fuels, bombing debris, and so much more. You watch what I do with this information and VA. Trying to guide others when doing these exams, Because they dont know what to offer VA. Self reporting relies on education, and most gulf war vets still dont get what happened. The say Gulf war syndrome and that falls flat. They say undiagnosed conditions and VA diagnoses badly, there are no undiagnosed conditions. This all hinges on blood labs, and only forensic toxicology would be able to prove anything. Im asking to change that. Keep in mind I dont fault the
VA nurses and doctors. This is bad executive policy from above making
them do this in a rudimentary way that fails. The problem is 810 Vermont
street in DC, and it wanting to fail at this.

There is considerable opposition by the media and social
media to the RAC Hawaii meeting Feb 7th, 8th, 9th
OMG, I have never worked so hard in my life to get out information just
about a RAC meeting for Gulf War vets. I dont know what is with all this
opposition to the story, Finally, by Sunday one story gets out and its
being shunned even in Hawaii.

American media has bent over backwards to keep this at bay. Im stunned
at how weird and ugly people are being about this event. I would swear they
are being told not to publish this. PACT act, ABHOR, and Gulf War.

Then Google sets out to silence my website. Never happened before.

Posted the article from Hawaii on the Oahu Veteran Center facebook page
and they took it down. The Flyer from VA two times, and now this. They
are hosting the event. Its two days later and the article isnt back up. What,
I cant post it, and they simply wont because I did?

This has gotten sinister to say the least. About a week to go and the global
media seems bent on suppressing this. The hidden message is as dark as
it can get.

Cant get this out with or without my name attached to this. Should have been
in all the newspapers, and TV stations by now. Its a long list now of those that
know of it, and wont touch this. Big names.

January 30th, 2023

Birth defects prevalence among infants of Persian Gulf War veterans
born in Hawaii, 1989-1993
This is a reminder that not just Gulf war veterans are forgotten, but there children
too. In 1993 something happened that lead to this very study. It was quickly
ignored and forgotten.

These studies did not follow a lot of things. Still births, miscarriages, and extreme
deformities. They did not do long term studies of learning disabilities, autism, ADHD,
and so many issue like this.

What happened 30 years later? Is anyone beside me even asking? I pushed these
kinds of issues while on my VA advisory committee in 2008. It was buried with our
committees final report. Then VA happily allowed the Gulf War spouse and children
registry to lapse. Totally wrote these people off.

Journalism is dead, too many fragile egos

In the past I had 3 big moments that got global attention. The opposition to
Presidential Special oversight Board in 2000. The opposition to the troops
going to Iraq in 2003. My getting a federal committee and being on it in 2008.
Right now, its the problems with the PACT act, ABHOR, and the RAC meeting
heading into February 7th, 8th, 9th.

What Ive run up against is universal contempt by the media to virtually any
story that isnt sucking up to the government. Im not allowed to have a attitude
or be angry about it either. Im supposed to be groveling at these peoples feet
accepting any crumb they might dole out rather than tell a story of hardship.
Some of the most mediocre writers Ive ever seen with big chips on there
shoulders. Never mind I live in destitution and hardship, the story isnt about
me and my hurting fellow vets - its about these writers first.

It was hard to get media long ago, but it wasnt this hard. Ive never seen so
many people that put themselves above there story. The lame excuses, and
manners as each one justifies there attitude. The story isnt important unless
it wins them favor with the government, not the public. These folks literally
enjoy devaluing me, and my hardships.

By now Im positive that Sec of VA Denis McDonough contacted Google to
have my website barred heading into the PACT act role out. Its the only thing
that makes sense. As he had the most to loose if I got attention. It would
explain much of the last year and his attitude since February 2022 with me. This
only furthers the contempt shown me having virtually no internet presence.
As Google is a monopoly above the law in situations like this. It can censor the
net when it suite them or the governments.

Whats your end goal here people? Do you not get the irony here. That this
screams George Orwell's class war scenario. Oppression of free speech to
control the masses? All of this is VERY ominous. What you do to others will
soon be done to you as well. Really? Cant happen? It just did.

January 27th, 2023

Google search engine blocking me entirely

Been at a fight between my host provider and Google. Godaddy says they are
doing there job, and dont care if search engines can pick me up. First time
in 23 years this ever happened.

Google on the other hand is a organization that has no way to reach when you
have a problem. Then when you email them, instant referral to there legal team
for litigation. See you in court attitude. Thats tech support?

So GoDaddy says they are up, index file is out there. Google say Godaddy
isnt putting out a index file. Says it cant be indexed. But, they have made
everything of mine disappear off the net between the two. Zero searches and
that with me looking? Right.

OK, Google - my FCC complaint number is 155918753.

The media cant find anything on me, and assumes Im a nut. 23 years of hard
work being buried at a critical moment with VA. This is no accident. Bad part
is since no on cares, they got away with it. The new norm in America, making
people disappear in broad daylight. This is what our government is going to
allow for its citizens, blocking our first amendment rights.

I can tell you this, the local TV stations in Waco are no friend of the veterans.
They are rude, condescending snobs writing puff pieces for the government.
This is nothing like it was just 10 years ago. Im sure they lied about not being
invited to the Temple PACT act role out. Saw no media at it of any kind. Public
Relations at VA is a joke, but its not that bad not to invite anyone from the media.


January 25th, 2023

Media and VA shut out veterans voices now

Doesnt seem to matter where I go to in the country about this RAC meeting
in Hawaii, they wont put up the flyers or talk about it. Total shut out in
Texas, in the US, and in Hawaii. Not with my name by them or just them
without me. For 2 weeks solid of this. Not just one, but dozens from TV
stations to newspapers and such.

Google claims it cant index my website. So its shut me out. Zero searches
even when I search myself. Godaddy says my website is working and
they really dont care if Google cant pull me up. This all means Im being
shut out fate 23 years of the website. All started 3 months ago.

My issue is 3 fold. The PACT act that failed me. ABHOR that has done all it
can not to provide statistical data for 8 years. The RAC meeting in Hawaii
that ORD is trying to sabotage. Now the media had demonstrated hostility
towards me and Gulf war vets regardless of my part.

Can only mean one thing, to censor veteran voices and paint a happy picture
where the PACT act is making it all better when its not. Upbeat stories only
and nothing with a down side. Even to misreport it like with me. As nothing
has changed for me in 20 years, it didnt the last 6 months either.

Now it looks like the new chairman and the RAC staff are doing all they can
to either censor my Powerpoint presentation or just remove my invite. I tried
to reach out to the chairman yesterday, and I got silence. Not even diplomacy
on her part. Shut out.

Im in contact with all manner of people related to this, and the ones that matter
are too sick to be apart of this. They either are too distracted, unaware of anything,
or too confused to focus. Producing a unwelcome silence.

This has begun to take on a Karen Silkwood quality around me, and I know how
that story turned out. Only, Im saying it out loud before it happens, and no one
cares. Which is giving the US government the green light to wipe out other lives
in a similar way nation wide in 2023. To silence veteran voices.

Make no mistake, these folks silence the loudest voices first. Then they silence
the people who knew about this. Then they make sure no one can speak up
about this topic. After that, nothing happened and all is well. Is it?

January 22nd, 2023

Trying to reach out to Jon Stewart for 6 months now

I feel bad for Jon because he so busy promoting the PACT act right now
and no one can tell him if its going wrong. Ive been trying ever since the
PACT act passed to warn them of the pitfalls coming, and how VA will
abuse the letter of the law. 6 months later, and boy its happening.

Sadly, word will get back when its a avalanche that could have been
prevented. As people wont speak up at first. Then it will take time for
someone who cant articulate what happened to them, which isnt that
easy. Once the rejections are in the thousands a year from now the
backlash will hit. That VA largely promoted PTSD as the easy out.
A somatic trap.

This has been ugly for me, slow, painful. Having to start over from scratch
with ever tiny detail around me. To over come the tremendous apathy, and
current mean spirited media. To have my past works trivialized, or suppressed.

At least the people of McGregor have been kind to me. Start small and build
on that. Waco has been nothing but rude, and mean till now. So many snobs
that just want everything to go away. Live in the past, comfortable.

Waco VA official cheers PACT Act, encourages applications

( front page news in Waco )

Im so embarrassed by this puff piece. Im misquoted, and even played
as a moron to VA. So much is left out of this. I certainly got nothing from
the last year, and damn sure no increase for respiratory and GI. The PACT
act failed me in so many ways, and it will others. But, the vets that pushed
it through did the best they could. VA twisted the meaning of the law to
its advantage. Which a year from now people will point out.

I posted a public comment that Im sure they removed by now. So I took a
screenshot to show it was up there. I even asked this writer who's sides is
he on?

American media is so busy playing down the veterans themselves. If its
not upbeat then dont write it. Tells me the government has been weaponized,
and has taken control of the media.

What is missing is Long Covid, and the lies about the ABHOR exam system.
Where only 9% have had a actual exam these last 8 years. That is missing
from the website state by state, participants - not exams. ABHOR and the
other registries play a major part in the PACT act.

Ive been through it all the last year and it all failed me. Im the first to do so.
All the while pointing out each step to Sec of VA Denis McDonough by email.
In return, he has been totally rude to me the whole time. They acknowledge
my emails, he just doesnt feel Im worth writing to. Discrimination.

What a nightmare all this is for me. My life isnt any better, and so far all this
is a lie to say im fine when I live in destitution, and despair. Fighting for my
life every day, and VA stalling me at every step. Hoping I fade away or just
die shortly. Only, Im trying to help the 20,000 Gulf war vets of Hawaii much
less the 3,000,000 the PACT act is going to fail in lots of little ways.

How do I know? Im living it and a year later of trying by there rules my life isnt
better - get that part straight. Im good at this, so how bad is it for those that

Repairing the decade long ongoing damage of
Sec of VA Eric Shinseki
VA was in a turbulent period of fast rotating Secretaries of VA a while back. 
None were staying around very long. A lot unmemorable moments leading to
a really disastrous show down in 2014. Sec of VA Eric Shinsekist
resignation in disgrace.

But, while in office he did a bunch of harm, and personal internal agendas
that VA never set out to fix. Grudge matches that didnt need to happen.

He had it in for the
†Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans, and wanted
its doors closed. Not just for its agenda, and methods, its that I opposed the
committees final report. This was not going to end well. Messy. So VA set
it to play down the committee, and just pretend we never existed.

Having done so, he set out to go after the Research Advisory Committee on
Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses in 2012 that had given him a vote of no
confidence. His answer, get rid of the chairman, and committee members
that spoke ill of him.

Since all this in 2013, its been 10 years of things spiraling down wards
with VA ringers towing the line of each Secretary of VA. In return, its
been dysfunction, and continual losses for Gulf war vets. Having rid of the
remaining reporting systems like the GWVIS, and finally killing off the
VA Gulf war newsletter.

Its happening again with Secretary of VA Denis McDonough who does
not take accountability for his actions, and his staff. For a year I have
written him directly, and they acknowledge they got my emails. Then
no letter from him, no conversations, and his staff even going after people
that did help me. With every Gulf war program, WRIISC, Burn pit Registry,
PACT act role out, and Toxic exposure exam. They dont work. His answer
is to avoid me. Really? Im that scary? Little ole me?

Gulf war vets continue to suffer from BAD VA management, legacy government
personnel, stigma, and what I take as personal discrimination against me.
That I am unworthy of his attention. For what, more of the same?

A really bad trends started in 2009, and the cycle needs to be broken. We
need to address the short sighted, and mean conduct of VA officials that
has lead to so much current dysfunction. As I feel a lottery of random people
right now would put in a more sincere Secretary of VA then one appointed.

Its time for change, and its NOT complicated.

January 21st, 2023

Conditional media and the careful efforts to keep veterans
from speaking up in unison
At this point Im beginning to get things back up on the net. But, there is a trick
to searching Google now. It does not respond to direct inquiries. The shorter
a phrase, then its about strictly popularity rather than topic. To find me you have
to type a sentence like "Kirt Love Gulf War" rather than just my name. Still, Im
finding volumes of things missing. People were asking about my website, and
the Yahoo mail list for some time now, and these weird filters and hidden app
functions were not showing me this.

Granted I wanted my privacy, strive for it. But, it looks like others were taking
advantage of this to try, and wipe out my existence. A grand colorful past unmatched
by others that is being trivialized because mediocrity is the new thing. No one is a
hero these days, and anyone trying must be subverted. The more sincere, the
worse the reaction to them. The era of the anti-heroes. Which there are way too
many of making America worse every day.

This has never been more true than the media Im dealing with now. Talk about
not wanting to report a story. So conditional now. Better be upbeat about the
government and whatever. What? VA seems bent on a misinformation campaign
like never before, and the media cant wait to promote that. Then they try to find
vets to match there stories, and they cant find any. Largely because they want
upbeat stories about VA efforts. So many are carrying grudges, and you get all
this mediocre tripe about the writer, and not the story. Its a huge double standard
and the poor are having to suffer the most for it. This is a social class war.

Everything Im doing to try, and help the 25,000 Gulf war vets of Hawaii before the
Feb RAC meeting is being met with some of the most lame things I have ever seen.
What they are doing is canceling each other out, and making sure that if anything
is said its between 1 to 2 weeks before the meeting. Why? Because this is geared
to reach individuals rather than groups. To divide and conquer. Not enough time
to rally a large collective effort. Having realized the government can defeat "armies
of one", they want this one on one to keep them in submission. The few that do
show will put out there hand, get nothing, and walk away bitter. Silenced.

Ive done all I can to try, and rally the old crowd. Nope, sulky silence. They either
plan to come in as "Armies of one" to attempt to grand stand, or not at all. Each
person has become so jaded, and self centric now they dont plan to work as a
whole which VA is counting on. They have already set out to undermine me like
much of the last 20 years. For what? They had 10 years of this going no where but
down. Driving away people. It failed in 2022 in such a spectacular fashion. More
of the same would only make it worse. Nope, got to fall back on destructive
behavior like a junky looking for one last fix. Ugh....

Only, I know the OIF folks are hurting and trying. They knew real combat and
were sent back to Iraq over and over. They are the ones now in VA at all levels
trying to save themselves. These are the people who showed me kindness the
last 2 years, and that they want to make a difference. They are in VA medical
centers now improving them alone, isolated, over whelmed. Being tricked by
VA executive staff to take the blame for bad management and policies. Im trying
hard to protect these folks from fallout or games

In the end, I can only do so much against a wall of global mediocrity. I have
so many ideas, and 20 years of experience behind that. The people that want
me at bay have nothing, they just dont want me to try. They set out to sabotage
my committee and its largely been that way ever since. The RAC meetings are
mostly circle jerks of egos canceling each other out in a mockish type class
war environment. So much effort into humiliation and keeping the vets at bay.
Anyone but the committee members who have lofted themselves to god hood.
10 years of boorish stagnation VA is thrilled with.

Yes, none of this helps outright. Criticism. But, Im tired of people walking up
to me wanting something then chucking me right after. Thousands of them
like Im some well funded organization just to grant them wishes. They have
taken everything from me, Ive nothing left. Destitute.

The vets have to pull together, and fight for the greater good. You save all the
vets - you save yourselves. Stop being so selfish, and realize this is a civic
issue rather than strictly personal. Vote on a single agenda, and unite to push
it through. Not 100 people shouting over each other 100 different things.

Your choices have been taken from you, and shortly its just civil war till nothing
if left. All that entitlement only ends up with everyone having nothing.

Grow up America, the problem isnt every where - its in the mirror. Stop blaming
others, and fix what you can around you in positive ways. Stop using up all
around you out of spite. No one owes you, work for what is real. Your working
the last of us to death the last few years who are on over load from Covid.

January 19th, 2023

Oahu Veteran center deletes post on Facebook of pending
RAC meeting in Hawaii Feb 7th, 8th, 9th
OK, Im a little surprised they left it open to post. But, it was real simple and
the jpeg of the RAC flyer. 2 hours later, the RAC sends out the notice after
2 weeks of silence over it. Then out of no where the vetcenter deletes two of my
post about the meeting. Like Im some diseased maniac posting pornography
or something as bad. Very offended.

So I posted it once more, and they took it down again. Now its personal.
Ive got screen shots to show it was up. No more. This is censorship. Told
the media there. Its on them now.

January 16th, 2023

Much of my past has been erased from the Web, and now
Im finding dozens of news articles gone
First it was my Yahoo mail list Gulflink being destroyed after 20 years. Then my 
website largely gutted. Now Ive discovered the bulk of my news interviews gone
from the web. Google makes it look like I never existed.

I tried looking so many up by title. Not there. Wall Street Journal? Really?

Stars and Stripes? Science magazine?
PSOB news interviews 1999, all gone?

Many dont know I was on Hardball the night of the President State of the Union
in 2003. So much media in 2003. Gone?

When I got my committee in 2007. Where did all that go?

Its like someone to trying to make me look like I was no one all my life.

Now I have to build a media section on Gulflink to show it all over time. Rebuild
what has been lost. But, will never regain all the search points I once had.

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January 14th, 2023

The PL 105-388 report that helped kick off the big hearings
†and lead to the Research Advisory Committee
November 1997 was a pivotal moment for Gulf War. Government Reform and
Oversight would kick off 17 hearings for the next decade. Heading into the
formation of programs such as RACGWVI and WRIISC with PL 105-368.

VA feared the congressional committees, and DOD had constant oversight as
it played with its OSAGWI division. These entities played cat and mouse up
to 2002. Then OSAGWI stepped back, as did MHVCB, and PSOB. By 2003
OIF set in, and the direction was on that.

Christopher Shays and Bernie Sanders were the congressional favorites at
the time. The CDC conference in Atlanta in 1998 was setting the tone as
PL 105-368 went into overtime with the Omnibus bill. After many incarnations
that got further and further chopped up, its was signed into law November 1998.
Back when Bill Clinton was President.

April 11th 2002 the RAC had its first meeting. 3 years after the law was passed.
Secretary of VA Anthony Principi would be the first and last sympathetic Secretary
to work with the Gulf War Crowd. The charter set in January 2002 was way past
the 1999 deadline.

It would be a rough run. Filled with VA stalling and squabbling at each step.
They were not popular, and called VA out on a vote of no confidence in 2012.
VAs answer, gut the committee, and put on ringers. May 2013, they removed
Jim Binns as chairman even though the veteran community had no problem
with him. It was VA that had the problem. Others left in disgust June 2013.

After 2014, the committee did as VA instructed. Chairman after chairman came
and went. It was no longer a power house. No sweeping reports. No more
oversight. Congress walked away. VA relished in the committee being a silent
tool to bury the past.
Finally, in September 2022 Chairman Lawrence Steinman stepped down, and the
worst era has come to a end. February 8th, 9th the RAC will meeting in Hawaii
of all things to set up a new Chairman. Cheryl Walker, M.D is a cancer specialist
which sounds like VA already knew the cancer clusters have begun. What
direction is this incarnation taking? Not the one it once had.

The RAC should reinstate Jim Binns and the older committee members at the
veterans request. 10 years, and VA has NOT done a better job without them.
If anything, its further gutted Gulf War Resources such as the GWVIS and
Gulf war Newsletter. Its stagnant. Only getting a shot in the arm from the PACT
act in 2022 which now is being subverted.

Where the hell is Government Reform in all this? The promise they made in
1998. Why have they left us for dead.

January 14th, 2023

There is nothing glamorous about Gulf war illness
Ive had 3 tumors removed by VA. So far, all benign. But, Ive also removed
other growths, and issues myself. Out of necessity. As they grew faster,
and faster I could tell I was in trouble. Dark brown, black. Often, it was a
soldering gun so that I could make sure it was dead. Not coming back.
Do you know hard it is to hold this against you till the feeling is gone?

If its not on the books at VA, it didnt happen. Thats where our problem lies.
What gets reported, and the volumes that dont. Ive taken lots of gruesome
photos of myself over the years. This one I came close to loosing my leg.
Hobbled for 2 years while VA dragged it out. Then the surgeon tells me they
may have to take my foot. Sent me to Scott and White where it went quickly.
Months to recover. Get this, they sent me home without pain meds or crutches.
Had to walk on this that Monday to get meds in Waco, drove myself. Spent
the first two days after the surgery with no pain meds. How is that for fair.

Im telling you, pets get better treatment at veterinarians than we vets do.
Its easy for people to be aloof when there not in pain. Ive had plenty of bad ER
days, and ugly emergencies that I had to wait 5 hours for pain meds while
waiting to have my fingers sewn back on. Holding them inside the glove upright
while trying to stop the bleeding. Nothing is urgent with these folks.

January 9th, 2023

RAC meeting heading into Feb 7th, 8th, 9th 2023
There are no details about the Feb 7th 2023 veteran engagement session, 
it wasnt in the federal register notice. Its would be Hawaii in keep with the
group but no one a said a thing out so far.

Media campaign is under way. Trying to reach as many as possible.
Started with Hawaii itself, and now progressing to state side locations.

Modified the WEBEX link in the federal register notice to it fits on this page.
VA should do a better job on the links by embedding them like I just did.

The GWVIS page is damaged and trying to find out what happened.
Version 2 coming.

The fact the RAC is going to Hawaii hit a real sour note with all era
veterans. Talk about grinding teeth when I talk to folks. VA has betrayed
so many era veterans the last 2 years that no one feels sympathetic about
this meeting. One picture of the new chairman on a surf board, and youve
got a some serious attitude coming even from the older crowd who cant
get care either.

January 8th, 2023

GWVIS reports and VA fudging the numbers in 2008
I had a major blow out with VA when I was on the VA ACGWV committee.
I had built a spreadsheet showing VA had altered its numerical stats in
the GWVIS reports over time. The spreadsheet was pretty damning, and the
numbers were not small ones. VBA wrote back it was a technical glitch
and blew me off. The end result, having been caught changing the numbers
and committing fraud - they killed the reports out right.

VA would produce a pre and post 911 report with some stats. Then after
2010 they just stopped all public reporting of Gulf war statistics.

Now Ive come to find the only place the GWVIS reports still exist is on the
RAC website and its only two of them. 2007, and 2008. But, the RAC
website itself hasnt updated any gulf war links since 2014.

So here is my GWVIS webpage and the ACGWV committee materials
associated with this. Buried for 14 years.
GWVIS reports and the ACGWV subcommittee materials tied to them

January 7th, 2023

RAC meeting: February 8th and 9th 2023, in Hawaii?

Dear Readers
You heard it here first. No where else.
The next RAC meeting is in Hawaii on Feb 8th and 9th. I find
this highly offensive.
This time, Im on the agenda presenting about the RAC the 
last 20 years in research.
Its the first time in 20 years the RAC has put me on the
docket as a presenter. Long long over due.
                              Kirt P. Love
Note: 23 years of reading the federal register every day,
it does pay to stay on it.
Email to other:
They played me to the last minute, that it would be DC.
Then Federal Register posted at 5am on a Saturday as
I predicted. None of this is up on the VA website.
Notice in the email it says ET time. Hawaii.

I have a 25 slide powperpoint that is going to change the
direction of all of this. With a new item at the end no
one will see coming. That effects all era veterans.

The implications here are both staggering and nearly comical.

YOU DO NOT WANT TO MISS THIS ONE. Its my best work ever.



February 9, 2023 - 3-4pm ET.†

Please provide your preferred title and affiliation.

Note all speakers and some committee members will be attending

virtually using Webex.

3-3:15pm ET

15 min

Veteran Perspective:†
1990-91 Military Exposures

Mr. Ronald Brown

1990-91 Gulf War Veteran

3:15-3:30pm ET

15 min

Veteran Perspective: Gulf War Research Historical Perspective

Mr. Kirt Love

1990-91 Gulf War Veteran

3:30-4:00pm ET

30 min

Veteran Perspectives:
Military Exposures
Veteran Roundtable Discussion

Ronald Brown

Richard Gaard

Kirt Love

Tom Mathers

Delphine Metcalf-Foster

Sonya Smith

Bill Watts

Dr. Jim Woody (Chair)

Veterans of Operation Desert Shield/Desert Storm


[Federal Register Volume 88, Number 5 (Monday, January 9, 2023)]
[Page 1321]
>From the Federal Register Online via the Government 
Publishing Office [www.gpo.gov] [FR Doc No: 2023-00135] ====================================== DEPARTMENT OF VETERANS AFFAIRS Research Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses, Notice of Meeting The Department of Veterans Affairs (VA) gives notice under the Federal Advisory Committee Act, 5 U.S.C. App.2, that the Research Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans' Illnesses will meet at the Oahu Vet Center, 1298 Kukila St., Honolulu, HI 96818. The meeting sessions will begin and end as follows: ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Dates Times ------------------------------------------------------------------------ February 8, 2023 9 a.m. to 3 p.m. Hawaii Standard Time (HST). February 9, 2023 9 a.m. to 12:30 p.m. HST. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ All sessions will be open to the public. For interested parties who cannot attend in person, this meeting will also be available by videoconference by connecting to Webex at the following URLs: February 8, 2023, 9 a.m. to 3 p.m. (HST): WEBEX
or join by phone: 1-833-558-0712
Toll-free; meeting number (access code): 2764 095 6460. Meeting password: GWVets1991!Day1 February 9, 2023, 9 a.m. to 12:30 p.m. (HST): WEBEX
or, join by phone: 1-833-558-0712 Toll-free;
meeting number (access code): 2763 890 9669. Meeting password: GWVets1991!Day2 The purpose of the Committee is to provide advice and make recommendations to the Secretary of Veterans Affairs on proposed research studies, research plans, and research strategies relating to the health consequences of military service in the Southwest Asia theater of operations during the Gulf War in 1990-91. The Committee will review VA program activities related to Gulf War Veterans' illnesses and updates on relevant scientific research published since the last Committee meeting. This meeting will focus on 1990-91 military exposures, exposure assessment, and the health effects of genes, lifestyle and military exposures. The meeting will include time reserved for public comments 30 minutes before the meeting closes each day. Individuals who wish to address the Committee may submit a 1-2 page summary of their comments for inclusion in the official meeting record. Members of the public may submit written statements for the Committee's review or seek additional information by contacting Dr. Karen Block, Designated Federal Officer, at 202-443-5600, or at Karen.Block@va.gov. Dated: January 3, 2023. LaTonya L. Small, Federal Advisory Committee Management Officer. [FR Doc. 2023-00135 Filed 1-6-23; 8:45 am] BILLING CODE P

January 6th, 2023

No clear leadership, army of one comes full circle with
speaker of the house fiasco

People are so out to trivialize everything, and how each individual is more
important than the whole - stalemate at all levels.

What I have seen in the Gulf War circles has spread to every corner of
society. Everyone is right, and everyone is wrong. They dont feel they have
to be honest or support anything. Its petty revenge. Undermining others.
100 people shouting 100 different agendas with zero interest in supporting
anyone but there own agenda. The collapse of government, and society.

It doesnt matter now if people are brilliant, in fact now that is punished.
Mediocrity has taken over. People who resent talent because it wasnt there
idea first. Modesty is gone. Cripple, resent, scowl.

Takes personality to stand out. People resent that. So now anyone that
stands out if the enemy. Making a lame duck congress a mosh pit of
mediocrity gone wrong.

This is the time for random lots, lottery. Take control away and make this
embarrassing for these folks. Make them realize they have to earn back what
they had rather than demand it.

Entitlement? Get over it people. Its time to get the job done and it wont be
glamorous again for a long time. Only, the world is watching and they are looking
to take advantage of this. Too much longer, and they will. Then when its gone
it takes 10 times the effort to get anything back.

December 27th, 2022

The Toxic Exposure scenario without evidence?

Been incredibly busy the last week. Ive made tremendous head way with my
Lysosome enzyme experiments. The key aspect of this was long ago with the
cholinesterase inhibitors. You mess with one enzyme, it ripples to others. We
ramped up one and it through off others. Residual long term effects?

But, as I read up on the PACT act, and ABHOR they refer to tissue collection
to study environmental factors. I know from the last year with VA this is not going
on or if it is - its very narrow. Certainly not the WRIISC, and not ABHOR. Damn
sure not with me.

In fact, tissue collection is NOT a VA strong point other than base labs. Its
considered invasive, and frowned on. If its done, its during surgeries for a biopsy
verification or post mortum. Ive begged for years to get adipose tissue studies.

Then I find out the new RAC chairman is a cancer specialist from Austin Texas.
Talk about throwing up red flags. As if VA knew what was coming or what has
already happened.

I wrote the sec of VA about all this today. Here is the link to that email.
Sec of VA Dec 27th 2022

December 24th, 2022

The AFIP tissue vault of 2000, the Gulf war tissue repository
of 2006, and the VABBB now - still no public catalog of samples

Long ago I fought with the Armed Forces Institute of Pathology over its Gulf
war tissue samples it collected since the war. The issue at that time is they
refused to provide a catalog of the samples.

This facility at Walter Reed hospital was slated for closing. The hint had
been brain cancer tissue slides of Gulf war vets. Then neck cancers. Then
the issue surfaced about ALS tied to this. The deal breaker had been a
veteran dying of a brain tumor that had no where to go. Wade George. Died
shortly after this.

I complained to the RAC year after year about the lack of cooperation on
tissues samples and the AFIP. The only game in town. They made a
recommendation, and in 2006 Anil Prasad presented the new biorepository
to the RAC. I even have the original slide CD they gave me on request.

Only, after all these years its called the VABBB in Boston and they dont
answer phones. I know, Ive called. 1-888-561-8727.

There is a current disease cluster the PACT act is aware of as is VA. They
want to service connect it without giving out numbers. No doubt samples of
the dying have been sent to the VABBB which does not want to report it or
catalog it just like the AFIP.

This is NOT what I asked for years ago. This has been corrupted, and they
dont even want to pretend I was at the beginning of this. largely because
right now they dont want people asking questions.

Where is the GAO, and Congress in all this? No one seems to be asking
any public questions about any of this. Why so much terminal care
presumptions without numbers to back them?

We need public oversight in all this. VA cannot manage itself. We put the fox
in charge of the hen house and no barking dogs.

December 18th, 2022

A year in review - doing every Gulf War program and item related
to our plight - show it to them - and still have VA treat me like garbage

This has been the wildest week of my life since 2008, and yet with all this
going on VA has gone out of it way to spoil it for me. There is such contempt
and over whelming animosity, over what? How dare I say the obvious?

Its not coming from the Temple VAMC. With them its high praise, except for
Public Relations giving me the cold shoulder.

Friday I wrote a email to the Sec of VA that got attention of others. It was enough
to draw Jim Binns ( RAC chairman 2002 - 2014 ) out of retirement and comment
about it as well. He responded after Betty Aguillar at VA EH commented about the
Pact act role out at Temple. Sec of VA was in Colorado Springs speaking to the
most important VAMC in the US that day about the PACT act. That was sarcasm,
obviously he was there to use VA funds for personal reasons and go skiing on
the fresh deep snowpack. Rather than to Texas where the biggest turn out to the
Pact act took place nation wide. ( To avoid facing me )

In my second email Saturday I pointed out to the RAC and VA that since February
Ive run the entire Gambit of Gulf war programs start to finish all year long. Beginning
with the Gulf war Registry exam where they didnt even take my vitals. The WRIISC
referral that took getting the Sec of VA to climb down EH program to make it happen.
The WRIISC exam that dragged from June to September, and after a big show end
in a really weak finish. Finally, the Burn Pit Registry that said I didnt exist over 8 years
and the huge road block to the ABHOR system I pointed out to the Sec of VA. Finally
I got the ABHOR exam that only 30,000 others got over 8 years out of the 317,000
that applied. Which certainly wasnt Gulf war vets because the screening process
didnt allow for southern Iraq land features and such. Where the CRUR program would
have patched those holes. Another thing I pointed out to VA and ABHOR HOME.

All year long these programs failed me in finding what I needed. I didnt get any
benefits increases, beneficial medical evidence, or really any changes at all other
than fresh insight into these programs. Not to mention my getting the Waco VAMC
to reinstate the Veteran communication council meetings gone for 5 years. Another
yawn from VA employees who resent me, and my being there. For what? Because
I make them work, answer questions? Make a phone ring in a very quiet room they
can relax in away from people.

I offered this information to the current VA RAC committee and they were quiet
as always. Go away Kirt. If you go away, we can do whatever we want. We've done
such a good job for VA all these years. Exactly my point, they have done what VA
wanted since 2014 to drive the issue into the ground. They have ignored suggestions
the last 3 years completely and pretend Im not even there asking question online
during there meetings. Till they removed the current chairman after a year of my
asking them to remove him. Keeping in mind I was asking the Sec of VA via email
all year long that they want to pretend I wasnt doing. Doesnt matter I was there at
the opening of the RAC in 2002, and never went away. Drove Jim Binns and the
others nuts all those years, and yet Jim saw enough in me to back me recently
because something is better than nothing. VA did him no favors in 2014.

VA knows right now the battle line with Gulf War right now is me, Im patient
zero and all they have to do is keep on pretending I dont exist. They know the
media is cruel now, and wont write a veteran story to save its life. They know
Congress is gutless, and wont look in on them. They know the vets are all armies
of one, and wont unite behind any cause any more. No one helps no one, and
all they have to do is keeping sucking up public funds for personal ventures like
skiing in Colorado. Im a 3rd world citizen unworthy of there precious time. My
opinions and 25 years of experience pail in compassion to theres. What could
I possibly have to offer?

As long as Im alive, Im still here, and undaunted. Only, Im fighting for more than
3 million other vets right that will be betrayed in the PACT act role out and the
ABHOR program designed to fail them. In the end, the focus is on respiratory
and those dying quickly. This will be so meager, and under whelming in the
coming months. I already know, ran the full spectrum and found out what others
will learn when they press the final answers of VA EH. That VA HOME is about
gathering information of who will try, then silence them with mediocrity.

Gulf War is barely mentioned in all this, and they plan to keep it that way. The
words "Benefits" and "Healthcare" are still bound by CFR 38 ss 3.317, and its
going to keep turning them away in bulk. Its up to me to change this, and right
now no one wants me to. OK, then who, where, when?

What a horrid year, because so much is happening, and its designed to fail. It
could be sweeping changes that really help vets. Not this falsified fiasco that
will be obvious in 2023. I know, it failed me in a spectacular way.

Friday email to Sec of VA and RAC
Friday letter from Jim Binns to Sec of VA

December 16th, 2022

The PACT role out in VISN 17, and the Temple VAMC turn out

Had no real idea what to expect when I drove down. When I got to the facility I saw
no banners, signs, or displays at the hospital. Got mad right off the bat. Looked like
a dead end. Then folks at the main tower started saying building 171. Took the
shuttle over. Nothing on the outside there. But, lots of people going in.

Place was filled with veterans and a line out the door of the exhibition room. Was
a out standing turn out at 10am. Busy busy. But, not real well defined and there
were minor issues where to go. The VBA line was wrapped back and around as
people filled out forms to be seen. Tables were marked with numbers. Some small
signs here and there with fine copy. Plenty of VA employees doing different roles
but in a diffuse pattern.

First thing I noticed right off. Geriatric crowd. 50's and up. Was not seeing anyone
in there 30's and 40's. No wildly dressed folks. Very subdued and quiet. In a room
this large it should have been stifling. The impression I got was one of people that
didnt seem excited or impressed at all.

As for the VA folks, younger veterans that wanted to be involved. These are folks
from OIF and such with a mission. I didnt see surely military career types that
often drive everyone away. No burn outs snapping at folks. In fact, the bulk of the
EH folks were energetic go getters I had not seen in 20 years. Temple had gotten
lucky and replaced a lot of the dead heads I had been bumping into these last two
decades. Other than the VBA regional director who could not smile to save his
life. He didnt seem to be having a good day.

Many talked about what happened in Dallas, who put on too big a show and
was hit with more than a 1,000 vets in the first 2 hours. They had RSVP'd folks,
and got a huge influx. Too much for the first session. Temple had at least 200
vets the first hour and then by 12 the line was finally inside the door way.

Finally, they used a break room to take the VBA over flow and had them sit
in there to wait to be called. That room was packed quickly. But, it also had a
kind of quiet sad tone to it like waiting for medical care visits. It wasnt happy
banter or people visiting loudly. They were not excited to be here.

I talked with everyone I could. Get the feel of the role out. Public Affairs folks
were doing what they could. But, afraid for there jobs. When I asked to take
pictures it was a stern NO. This did NOT sit well with me. However, I knew people
would be uncomfortable on both sides. This time, I would hold off only because
of the turn out. This was a mixed bag that could be screwed up quickly with
the hot heads waiting to snap.

My problem is top down with all this. Its now understood this is a terminal
benefits drive. Get those dying in and something. But, I didnt see anyone
that looked like that. No wheel chairs. Thats a bad sign. As the rest would
find out this is mostly respiratory and depends on ABHOR exams. I could
see 10% to 30% max for the others applying at most if EH was kind to
them. Because C&P was not going to coach them. Good thing Ive been
coaching EH this year on top down strategy and how to work it.

As for the veterans? I was pissed. The younger folks will wait till its too
late and then hope for a quick fix. Ive seen this with Gulf war. If its not 100%
rating in 2 weeks then why bother. Do it for me. Boo hoo hoo. I dont blame
them but I deeply resent this. Generally, the people who know me want me
to magically do it all for them. I dont. They are living there lives, and those
working wont leave work for this. Youve got to be willing to put a hard 110
days into this to get a rating that year. Take your C&P serious, get the right
consecutive evidence on record, and a good claim writer to make your C-File
sing in the ratings review. This has to be coached. It wont.

Sad part is, today didnt benefit me. I was here to support the event. Had already
been through all this with the WRIISC, and ABHOR EH folks on what I could
do for my current rating. Which they pushed PTSD, and thats a somatic illness
loophole that punishes vets. All I could do today was observe and prepare
for the next event. help others use what there is in place. EH folks l knew I was
watching them closely. They did not disappoint, but didnt have the support to
drive folks there way. Mixed message.

Timing for me was perfect though. Had spent the last year starting form scratch
with VA heading into all this. Knew the layout, and who was where all the way to
810 Vermont street in all this. That the break down is with HOME and the
executive branch folks ducking the media. Playing down the disastrous NIH
study about the ABHOR registry.

Its going to take time to flesh out both sides in all this. If anything. I think a
great group is at the Temple VAMC if they had more support on all sides.
The veteran community needs to get angry, and fight back at VA top down.
There focus should be management making higher end benefits retroactive
to stop punishing those that have gone without a decade to 3 decades.
Yes, there is going to be a rush this year. But, its being watered down to
reduce the rating decisions. The terminal ill folks get a few months of help.
Then they die and the spouses, children do not. Those that arent terminal
will only get small simple stuff added, not 60% or higher needed to survive
in these times. 10% to 30% is a insult to those fighting to survive that dont
have clear cut medical conditions you can see.

In truth, I would have rather lost a arm or leg in Iraq. What Ive been fighting
is sinister and subtle. People see a leg missing, they dont insult you. Its
not that hauteur snide look down the nose stuff I get. The stuff I fight everyone
gives up on. Eventually your abandoned even by family that wants to move on
and enjoy there lives. No one wants to hear it. VA counts on that. Which
would explain why so many other younger folks are not there today. There
families gave up on them too. They have to fight to survive each day alone,
and squeeze by on what little they can. The fight is gone after Covid and
economic failure had ground us under foot.

I was needed, but not wanted there. Frustrated on how to fit into this
new battle field. Because its all in flux. There will be more, this is the intro
and opening doors. ABHOR, PACT act, Camp Legune, and such has made
VA face the music. But, these are still bean counters and they plan to reduce
the cost by minimizing this out of view. Now is NOT the time to be timid if
your a hurting veteran. Its also not a time to be polite to VA management
in Washington DC. Because we still dont get monthly or annual reports to any
real numbers. Death count is higher than they let on to be pushing terminal
illness care like this.

What I will say is, those going to Temple VAMC give these folks a chance.
Its nothing like 10, 15, 20 years ago. They need help and support. There is
a large OIF group there that took up the slack. Dont take it out on them.
But,speak up and stop hiding folks. Doors are open, and you have to learn
the ropes to go further than they plan for you to. We are being tricked on
this role out and in a few months the backlash will start. Ive got my work
cut out for me this next year. Im already ahead of the others.

December 1st, 2022

The Sec of VA, former presidents, and how they divert attention
away from themselves in a crisis

Had several phone call from VA Friday. In every one of them I had to assure that
person I was dealing with at the Temple VAMC that I wasnt out to get them. The
Secretary of VA's staff had contacted them, and put it off on them. That the problem
was the Temple VAMC. I had to assure them this wasnt a Presidential request or
a Congressional request. Ive had two Presidentials and 4 Congressionals in my life.
My first was a lousy 10% rating in 1997 from the Clintons. This was me writing to
the Secretary of VA who in return ducks every problem this last year.

The point was my problem is the with the Secretary of VA himself as his policy the
last year has been one of contempt and arrogance. The man is a coward, and he wont
write to me like others have in the past. Worse, he continues to implement policies
and procedures that are harmful by accident or on purpose with indifference to input.
In his mind, he isnt accountable to me or anyone else. Save Congress or the
President. Completely forgotten he is a public servant, and supposed to respond
directly to public inquiry.

If anything, Ive found people at the Temple VAMC Im desperately trying to protect
from the fall out. That I dont want them to testify to Congress about what they saw
because VA will fire them as whistle blowers. The one thing its so hard is to find
people who care, and I want them in place to do just what they do. Ive seen this too
much over the last 25 years. VA is real quick to get rid of people who try. Im in a
pickle here because Ive been a round long enough to see how the villains cover there
tracks by decimation. One bad apple will wipe out a whole unit to keep there job.
Mediocrity at the highest levels keeps itself in place by isolation and diversion.
Which has produced a horrible attrition issue at VA.

Been very busy backing up 25 years of data files from my very earliest days with
the government in 1996. Proving my paper trail in the event I suddenly vanish.
Ive forgotten just how I used to write the White house and Pentagon. Found this
5 page letter from Under Secretary of DOD Bernard Rostker explaining to me the
current situation with Gulf war issues, at President Clintons request. As the years
past the response letters from Presidents got much shorter. Bush barely used
2 paragraphs. I had opposed his deployment to Iraq in 2003 and the world knew it
as global media picked up on that..I could have saved America 2 trillion dollars by
staying out of it. In return, I almost disappeared then when they seized my plane
at Dulles airfield to shut me up. The patriot act in play in 2003.

We have policy makers that implement bad ideas, and do so without our permission.
For 25 years Ive opposed this with purpose. To improve on that. Enough so I was
able to get a Congressman to let me write a letter to VA, and he signed it. That
turned into a VA federal advisory committee. Then I got appointed to it. Not just
anyone could do that. He had to see something in me to do this. As he talked to
me in person. Very few choose to do this or write me. The cowards.

Gulf war vets have been punished for 8 years with the ABHOR registry. It was
on purpose. I called it out, and now its about diversion. Not dealing with that.

Oh, I got my ABHOR exam in a few days. Suddenly Im worth there time for that.
Like all the other programs I followed to the letter all year long that fail me.
But, they didnt fail me at Temple. They failed me from the executive level as
VA does not want Gulf war vets to speak in public. They dont want us in the room
with them except in diversionary ways. Like keeping the RAC in place so its
only research they can avoid - rather than healthcare and benefits issues. The
one thing VA has been adamant about, dont give Gulf war vets a soap box for
healthcare and benefits issues. Let it all fail.

I can only save VISN 17, I cant save the country. Its too big. But, I can show the
employees of VISN 17 what there VA bosses have planned for them. See if they
will save Texas from itself, as we have nothing above them but tyranny. I think
these folks got that Friday.

So much wasted effort here, and needless distraction. To make a vastly bloated
tax fraud do the job it was supposed to. Boy, do they not get me. Just how bad
does this really get before people wake up. At least its got me aware of my website
and how much data is missing. As Ive lived a life very few ever dream of.

December 1st, 2022

National Academy report condemning the ABHOR registry

Reassessment of the Department of Veterans Affairs
Airborne Hazards and Open Burn Pit Registry

Im pissed, VA burn-pit-registry and VA HOME knew about this report in October and so far
they have been hiding from it. So while Im paralleling every aspect of it, and
proving Im right VA including the Sec of VA has been ducking me.

317,000 participants out of 3.7 million, and yet only 30,000 got medical exams
for 8 years. Proof VA is using this to keep vets at bay.

I sent out the first article from Omaha to others. Warned my VA EH coordinator
of what is coming with this. Im at the center of this with answers and no one
wants to work with me, a Gulf War vets with answers. Completely sinister.

November 29th, 2022

Burn Pit registry and Gulf War veterans since 2014

My update project now has taken a monumental turn for me. Having discovered
many hidden issues. Then couple that with the usual red tape and indifference
at all levels.

After hours of work, I got through the Burn pit Registry eligibility menu. I had to
settle for denoting "Iraq" and "Saudi Arabia" without putting down Kuwait. But,
having done so I sent 3 emails last week at all levels of VA and DOD. Most were
done BCC so others didnt know the addresses. Only the VA stuff was public.

The point being I had 3 separate databases of information as reference, and that
the CRUR should be part of the air borne hazard registry. As well as still classified
data at DOD over locations that should NOT be classified.

I got the attention of several people on high. DHA was real quick to say this was
resolved when its not. Then VA threw HOME ( Health Outcomes and Military
Exposures ) at me which two emails have been forwarded. I can tell you this is
at the highest levels today of VA and DOD because Ive proved that for 8 years
VA has done all it can to turn GWI vets away from the Burn Pit Registry. To make
it hostile and offensive on purpose. So needlessly complicated that tens of
thousands turned away for 8 years.

Suddenly, Im now eligible and able to finish the survey? It should not have been
near this hard. Its not over either. Now I get to see how punitive and shallow
this is too. How quickly they will grab at somatic type questions and rigged
simplistic responses that can be skewed. Then what?

VA lost ground this year to Camp Legune and Burn Pit Registry. It has to address
Toxic exposures by law. Its created a loop hole to bypass the Feres Doctrine to
make civil tort claims stick to the government. What they want is to minimize the
cost by making sure Gulf war vets dont apply or try. If they do, then make it so they
give up quickly. We are the orphan cause between then and now.

What is missing in all this is human kindness. 30 years GWI vets have suffered,
and America doesnt care these days. Its devalued us. Only to find now they are
pretty much devaluing everything. Which makes it easy for VA to go on business
as usual. Cold, indifferent, condescending, and getting a little sick perversion out
that anonymity to be cruel to others. Spite over nothing. A grudge from 1995 on that
just wont go away.

Been a very hard year with VA. Ive done it all by the book, and every step has been
drug out then filled with back handed issues. Gulf War Registry, WRIISC Referral,
WRIISC exam, and now the Burn Pit Registry. Which is why Im now versed on
where all this is at in 2022. I did it your way VA and its still designed to fail me
in a colossal way. What little I did get from it, I fought hard for over months. Each
step was frustrating over nothing.

To VA at the top, Im a annoying nobody unworthy of there time. They make that
very clear all year long. How dare I write them or complain. Only all year long I think
Ive made dozens of valid points that have gone unanswered. Im not worthy of
answers? Really? Public servants in office to aid the population? They sure dont
get that any more. Doors closed, and spit in our direction more than ever.

Its a sign of things to come. When all doors are closed. Not far off now, as the
White House got rid of internal phone numbers people used to call. This is not
the DC I knew from 1999 to 2005. When it was friendlier. I didnt think so then,
but I sure see it now. You could walk up or in everywhere back then - now they dont
even answer phones.

You get what you give America, and cutting off your military is the last straw
before total anarchy. It was for Rome, and others. I know better and yet Im very
much alone in many ways because the opportunist dont want people to catch
them cashing out. Behind closed doors, anything goes. Since 2020, its a ghost
town in DC they wanted. As long as people dont unite or fight back. Its every
where now - and people are picking each other off thanks to it.

November 21st, 2022

CRUR data, the Army declass project, OSAGWI hidden internal
files, and the hideous mocumentary "Leave no stone unturned"

My update project now has taken a monumental turn for me. Having discovered
how much damage had been done to my website slowly over time. That others
had altered it to cover up my long years of hard work. Which is why Google
pretty much dumped me.

Bit by bit Ive gone back 22 generations of backups to recover the original
files as far back as 2006. Im stunned at how bad the website got. That others
took advantage this way to destroy it and me. Will take time to put it all back.
Thousands of pages. Making sure they work. Then Ive got some new stuff to add.

Going to build a Steve Robinson page with the 2002 materials he handed me.
He left OSAGWI, and tried to air what went on there - Congress blew it off. They
were wrong to do this. OSAGWI was fowl, arrogant, and mean. They did not
have the veterans interest at heart, at all. Which the mocumentary "Leave No
Stone Unturned" proved. OSAGWI got away with fraud, waste, and abuse of
public funds. Then left off the hook to cover up the Gulf Wars much darker side.
As did PSOB's staff for them. It was truly vile for those of us that had to watch
close up. Being spit on like this month after month.

Bare with me, about to be some major changes next few days.

November 20th, 2022

Starting completely over in so many ways, as I found Gulflink
had been gutted - get it all back out there and some

I had run into a very bizarre situation. I needed to send my CRUR unit data to
VA EH to show my locations in Iraq - and there all gone. Not just on the website
but back 12 generations of copies. No telling how long this has been gone among
dozens of other files. To include the PAC and PSOB websites. My website has been
gutted of nearly all its files.

See, the Burn Pit Registry has a intentional flaw. It doesnt list gulf war battle locations
or offer grid cords. So I could not get past this screen. Weeks later the EH coordinator
called asking what happened. I told her. The offered to send her my CRUR sheets. Only
to find there all gone. Took me 3 days to back track to a hidden USB stick from
2006 before I found them again. Now I can prove where I was in the Gulf war, and also
get others into the Burn Pit registry with the same.

Its made me go back through gigs of old data. Even other peoples like Chris Kornkven
and Steve Robinson stuff they gave me long ago. Which made me realize, its time
to start releasing all that. As Steve Robinson gave me internal OSAGWI records and
documents in a secret office meeting. I vowed I would sit on them. Since they never
came after him for having them, then that means they were not classified and suitable
for public release. So now I have to verify this with Deployment Health. Among numerous
other files that I have inventory logs of for Army, Navy, Centcom, Satcom, Air Force,
Sea Bees, Special Forces, Pathfinders, and long list I once tried to FOIA. In fact, it
should be a world record that hasnt been matched since. But, they dont keep those
kinds of records. I was sending more than 5 a day for 245 days. Stacks and stacks of
green receipt cards showing they got them. The server system crashed and security
review got involved. OSAGWI freaked out. Which is when I got the OSAGWI sever inventory
spreadsheets among numerous other things. Maxwell AFB logs, Centcom logs, and
then dozens of other files like this. Then Government Reform stepped in, and Rep
Christopher Shays demanded NARA let me have greater access at Suiteland. OMG,
the stuff I found. By then Steve Robinson saw I was going to break the bank and he
talked about OSAGWI. That lead to more and more. Like the stuff PSOB, MHVCB,
and OSAGWI confided in private with me. It got real weird after that till March 2003 when
they seized my plane at Dulles AF and rifled my luggage before my speaking on German
TV. They were looking for classified files.

Im being punished for having Gulflink all the time. Now they hope it vanishes into
obscurity as the got rid of Gulflink.osd.mil. Its now https://gulflink.health.mil/ but its
not up on the weekends. So Im going to put up the PSOB, PAC, MHVCB websites
to make sure its all up. As vets need to get there CRUR data to get into the Burn
Pit Registry. Having to start that all over again.

So as of today the CRUR data is back up. Over time so with the bulk of it. Till Im
back in the top ranks of Google one way or another. As there has been a very sneaky
effort to hide me in plain sight. Im about to change that.

November 19th, 2022

Google rewrites history, and aids the government to help
conceal what the wealthy dont like online abut the Gulf war

Search engines were quite the rage in 2000. Big selection, and they had some
neat properties. But, Google rose up and took the stage. I liked it at that time
because it took 18 unusual words and thrust me into the top ranks for decades.
Then slowly as time went by, it became more selective and I saw it was a screening
tool to limit what people searched for. It was certainly about popularity, but it was
also about reducing that as well. To make people unpopular, and wait for obscurity
to rid selection.

Then in 2020 Yahoo set out to rid me of my long standing Gulflink mail list. It was
a chronicle of daily issues back to 2000. Was quite unceremonious. Like none of
it ever happened. The build up to the 2003 Iraqi invasion, and the world media as
we opposed troops deployment. The betrayal of those troops. The medical problems
that followed them afterwards like leishmaniasis and acinetobacter baumannii. Finally
the burn pit fiasco. The formation of my own VA federal committee, and our betrayal
at the hands of the Gulf War Illness Task Force. The decimation of the RAC, and
its gutting by VA with ringers that ruined it. So much death, and betrayal.

I asked a VA EH coordinator to look up "PAC Mark Brown" which should have
turned up dozens of aspects from 1995 to 2003. Nothing. Presidential Advisory Commitee
didnt come up or him. He was on it. It was such a scam because they abandoned there
records in a warehouse after the committee was disbanded. NARA could not find them
and I fought to get them saved. The website too. They were all too happy in 1999 to
pretend all they GWI data they collected vanished. Same thing with the Presidential
Special Oversight Board and the Military Health Veteran Coordinating board. Up to
2002 it was all the rage to just abandon things.

Im trying to prove steps in the system as they progressed over time, and this all
had mostly vanished. Leaving me as the sole remaining largest archive of all this that
can prove what happened from 1997 to 2022 in our arena. As I saved everything you
could imagine for this very purpose. Including every email to 1997. As now most of those
people are quite dead on both sides of this issue. Very little exist now of our long struggle
with DOD / VA. No one has what I have, I promise you. Not this complex, and of all
the 33 groups that existed that now have faded away. Even the British stuff.

Many would like me to die silently in the Gulf war crowd because I was a battling
cantankerous person in there eyes. Yet, I saved it all because it was proof of who said
what at key times. The dynamics of the crowd. Its numerous failings. I didnt want
to falsify any of that, I wanted it verbatum to look back on. As I could have finished off
the NGWRC a dozen times all the way back to when VVA was ready to pull there
funding. I was the last person that had there TV commercials Ross Perot paid for.
I owned the domain name briefly, and it didnt cost them dearly to get it back. Over
and over till at one point I was very nearly voted president at a national meeting in
Atlanta - when others sabotaged the nomination. My battle with Steve Robinson
was epic by then as with OIF under way.

All this gone at the hands of Google. Which I find quite sinister. As I see its meant
to devalue the unpopular in favor of wealthy public opinion. To silence Gulf war
vets and help bury the past.

Im needed but not wanted. My new goal is to get this stored at the Smithsonian
so that NARA cant keep concealing what it shouldnt. That 22 years of constant
betrayal will not be rewarded with a silent victory. To cover it all up, and write us off.
Change American history in favor of the wealthy. That gulf war vets were little more
than a nuisance to America to swept under the carpet.

Im still here, Google will not win his fight to make me vanish. Nor with DOD Deployment
health or VA. You wish I was gone, I didnt die those many many times. Im more
like Lazarus now but in the bad ways. I deserved better than this.



October 14th, 2022

Its all about profit, and if your poor - your screwed

I watched another product silently vanish from the stores. Just about anything
from .50Ę to $1 is not profitable and goes up or gives up. This one was Southgate
Beef Hash. Its now too hard to make it, and they gave up rather than go up on
price. Its one of dozens of items I relied on as a poor person. Not good for me,
but it was alright for my growing daughter.

For me, inflation is between 40% to 100% now across the boards. So many food
items have doubled in price or more. Staples beyond my reach now. Shortages
on so many things at the bottom end. The attitude is, the rich must profit at all
cost and they no longer care if anyone makes it. Much like OPEC and the oil
prices. Its about extreme profit now. Time to cash out.

The poor just take it out on each other. Misdirected anger, looking for easy targets.
Road rage and un-civic behavior is explosive around me. So is the contempt
people have for each other. The bottom feeders are lashing out in passive
aggressive ways not realizing people are building very deep grudges against
them. Out here, idiots play each other like no one will catch on. Resentment
is becoming explosive. These will become life time grudge matches they
wont win. Several have learned already. But, it ripples over into so many things
like the quality of road repairs and such. TxDot here sabotages its own road
repairs on purpose.

The media is careful to ignore the credit card defaults about to happen. Well
over 100,0000,000 credit cards. Thats a possible 1 trillion dollars on top of 3
trillion in other credit assets that just tanked. As the rich made sure the only
way people could pay there bills was use credit cards to make up for the
lack of income. Sucking the world dry. Out of a10 trillion asset base?

No one is trying to fix any of this. Over all people want this all to fail. Because
they want there neighbor to fail. Oh, they will make it as long as there
neighbor doesnt. No you wont idiots. Because you destroyed the infrastructure
and industry base so well that it cant be rebuilt all at once. Will take decades
and if its not profitable people wont do it. Because it wont be about civic, it
will ONLY be about profit. That resentment wont go away till those people
die off harboring it. Like over 40 years.

Once the poor catch on, it will be mob rules. They will work to dig the rich out of
there bunkers over time to get there revenges. These folks will fixate on you
for there suffering. Because rather than be civic, they will only focus on the
negative. Like for 20 years and such. Waste even more time making sure that
no one gets ahead.

Its starts with the small things. Till all that is left is over priced things. Then
no one can afford those. Each thing that isnt profitable vanishes. Till there
is nothing left. All of you made this happen. Kept living in denial and thinking
it will fix itself. How? Your not fixing it. You stood back and gave the devious
and dishonest the keys to the city. They then purged those and went on a
bender to celebrate. Because the 3rd purge has begun of what didnt sell,
and manufactures gave up because it didnt make a profit. Freezer sections
of stores are about to STAY bare of cheapest items.

Well, the margin call is any time now. Growth economics was a lie. We are
way over the line, and bled the poor dry. The very rich know this and try to
cash out. Then hide in there bunkers and laugh at the rest of us. Only, people
they hired to build these bunkers know were they are. People will camp on
your door step waiting for you to come out when nothing is left. Thats your
legacy on a global scale? People will forget what you did? Not likely. Thats
all they will live for at that moment. Has been throughout human history.

Could have been civic. Global. But, too many out there feel there are entitled.
Theyve lost sight of what really matters. Like Putin and the Ukraine. As people
will fight back till both sides loose. Till nothing is left. Salt the earth. Putin
lost sight of just how toxic past invasions of long ago got. His quest will
back fire on him and all around him. Because its not realistic.

All around me now are dozens of indicators that people think this is a golden
time to destroy others, and take what they have. They do NOT get how people
will fight back, and then never let go of what happened. Lifetime battles have
begun that only end in violence. Unrealistic toxic mindsets that do not get
the out come of there actions. You want too much! Something is better than
nothing. Your not owed people, give that up. Work to keep what you got
and learn to live on less. Much less thanks to you. Not getting involved in
the right way when it mattered.

Its too late now. Billions will die soon. Suffering on a epic scale. Till people
realize long after the fact they killed the golden goose. When bread is a
luxury and they will kill for it. Did NOT have to happen. Fully preventable.
Still is. But, not with these 2 digit IQ's out there chipping away at it. Live
for the moment?

For me the economics war has been going on for 2 years. Loosing another
thing each day. Knowing its not coming back. Been all too real for me. I
know growing food is super hard. I have beetles right now wiping out my
gardens by the thousands. Drought and temperatures make it impossible
to grow food here. Its not a joke to me. Trying to get seed stock for next
year from what is left. Texans will die by the millions if they had to grow
there own food here. Not even enough seed base here if they started today.
Cant grow food in 106 degree weather and no water.

There are things I know about Texas internally that most have no clue.
Ive tested the networks and OMG. The contempt is amazing. Then you have
the Trump anarchist in the wings in key positions ready to strike and
take over when the bottom falls out. You can have it! Like the Taliban
being given Afghanistan - turn out the same way. People wont rally to
your cause folks. Internment camps? Only make it worse. You cant control
undirected anger at that scale and resentment in your ranks.

What if Im wrong? Great. I hope Im very wrong. Only, Ive been 87% on
such a large number of predictions. The next ones Im keeping to myself
because I really hate them. I really hope Im wrong. Want to be on this.
But, Im a student of human nature and I dont have the luxury after all these
years of being wrong. No one cares, and so it begins. Ive been living on much
less and have practice. I already know what it feels like and some. Ive hardened
off to the crappy way people are - they tried early with me. Those that think
they deserve more than they need, they are all around you. In fact, thats
pretty much everyone around you now. Even family members, Ive watched
it here and in mass. Its universal. Your only fooling yourselves.

September 26th, 2022

The phone campaign on DC has begun

Early today I got he automated email from the Sec of VA office that my
complaints have been passed on to VHA. Only, Ive gotten these before
this year. Dead letter office till now.

It had been a long time since I called the White House itself. Did today only to
find they killed that 202 number. Things are even worse than I guessed. So
I called the White House veteran VA hotline at 855-948-2311 only to find
its not at the White house any more. OMG, they put the fox in charge of the
hen house. But, turns out my email was also sent to them and the complaint
number is 8524321. So will hold my breath on this? Yeah right.

( Part 2 of the white house numbers. )
Really? Ive had a forgotten secret phone number all these years that Donald
Trump killed off? Now I have dozens of others that he had killed off. 202-456
is dead all the way down the list. 202-456-5484 wasnt among there list. But,
Biden decided to keep it that way. Hide in plain sight. This does not deter me.

What the Secretary of VA does not get is this time Im going to call anyone and
everyone around DC like I used to do 20 plus years ago. This time Im going
all out to make a scene like I used to in 1999. Till its impossible to ignore or
avoid me. The last year now demands it. I think the scale of this has gone
wildly out of bounds by any comparison. Im done being ignored.

This all is a firewall, I intend to tear down this firewall. The one built slowly
since 2008 till now its absolute. Which means I will have to stand in front
of the White house with a picket sign soon. That is now on the books.

You folks went way too far, and now I have to go public in some really big way.
Draw attention to our GWI plight. Rather than be spit on any more. Only to
be crushed by the wealthy in some new more cruel way. Cause right now
GWI vets have NO representation on the hill and VA plans to wait us out
openly. We have no rights, hurry up and die you scummy vets, Really? Ive
been the bench mark to how far they can and will go at RAC meetings. To
mistreat and vilify a vet in the open in front of others. That my former VA GWI
advisory committee had zero value in the past. Good ole boy system.

Contempt is the name of the game, not progress. Time to call that out.

September 25th, 2022

RAC meeting Sept 21-22nd

This was a mix of things for me. The usual snide condescending attitude
from the committee, and yet good news - they got rid of the chairman.
After a year of begging for his removal I guess they heard me. Since I was
writing the Secretary of VA about him over and over.

The meeting was filled with endless technical flaws for both days. Day
2 was much much worse. I saved the chat bar session for both days
including the drop out part when they reset the Webex peer.

What I tired of was 3 different folks who had to control the meeting in there
own manic ways. It was highly disruptive and was keeping others from
being heard more. Room fool of chiefs, and no indians. Only, it was 50
armies of one trying to cancel each other out. Was almost comical at
times how it came off so petty like shouting on twitter. Text bombing.
Not real content either, just endless commentary. One liners to keep
others from posting. Boring at best.

One thing I really did not like, they still havent posted the presentations
from that day. I said on the chat bar it would be two weeks, and the RAC
staff said right after the meeting. Well, its Sunday and nothing. Meeting
ended Thursday. Could have let us download them that day on Webex.
Nope, lets treat the vets like crap once more - who will do anything about
it? Certainly not Congress or anyone else. VA is above the law and its
anything goes. With tax payer dollars.

Then I tried to get back on the Airborne Hazards and Burn pit registry.
VA says Im not on it after being one of the first to apply. Now a new
road block. Deployment locations. Gulf war, Desert Storm, it does not
offer that for Iraq. I knew this was rigged when you cant pull up the southern
regions or the Madina Ridge. Dozens of spots around the oil well areas
that dont come up either. Its geared for OIF from 2003 to present. How
many thousands of GWI vets have been turned away by this screen.
Search aspect only offers newer deployments in middle and northern Iraq.
Im outraged by this. Its going to take me weeks of data mining the servers
to pick this apart and find some on my locations. As it does NOT use
grid coordinates or GPS data.

I wrote once more to the Secretary of VA, and I spelled out much of the
last year up till now. I truly doubt he will do right by me now. He hasnt
all year long. He is afraid of me, or so lofty that Im a peasant to him.
Either way, he certainly isnt brave enough to respond to me himself.
Sad part is, he will be gone shortly like the others - I have to learn yet
another Secretary of VA all over again. 8 of them so far for me. I liked
Brown, Principi the best. Peake gave me my committee. Others have
been much worse. Snide, rude, mean.
Letter to Sec of VA Denis McDonough

Im not going away, and Ive done it by the book all year long. If its this
bad for me, how bad is it for others who dont under stand the system?
How many tens of thousands are being driven away each year on purpose?
With loop holes, dirty tricks, technical flaws, and just simply not having
a answering machine for VA offices like the WRIISC. Its all one way the
bulk of the time. Dictatorial. Vicious.

People go boo hoo hoo around me, and yet they arent out doing me. Get
out of my way and let me get something done. As for VA, mediocrity has
crippled you. Either change path or get out of my way. We did it your way
for 12 years now and its dead locked. You cant improve on it and wont. So
let me have a crack at it. Ive got ideas by the box load and its based on
what I lived through including this year. Your top down, Im bottom up. Only,
Im the customer and this isnt working. In real business circles, you would
be chapter 13 and living under a bridge. $100 billion dollar bloated failure
that would not survive in any other arena with all the twisted loop hole
laws VA hides behind. Your not even transparent about your budgets.

30 plus years for me of all this. I have the right to complain, What I would
like is a crack at fixing some of this rather than watch it get worse. Its so
distorted and convoluted now the only happy people are the worst ones
still employed making sure no one else can get them fired. Legacy VA and
DOD employees with grudges decimating thousands of lives.

Simplify folks, distill this down. CFR 38 is supposed to be fluid. Its stagnant.
Then lets cut away to fat and get to meat of this. Instead of pretending I
dont exist and your doing a great job by rigged polls. I dont share your
glowing internal reviews of your infrastructure. Too many upper crust
going to expensive training camps and bonuses for failing at your jobs.

You dont want this critique? Then stop treating me like Im a migrant
farm worker with no rights. Im a combat veteran, and I wasnt playing
in port - I was being shot at in Iraq all the time. 100 hours of endless
moments that this was it - that one would get me. Boom. Boom. Hour
after hour. How dare you insult that.

Lets try a different direction that doesnt involve more years of this. Maybe
we try actually making some hard progress. Instead of keeping us at bay
year after year with your ringers and bogus programs.

Its time to do some work, and Im eager to do my part. With some help.

September 18th, 2022

WRIISC exam wrap up, getting my General ham license
and the coming RAC meeting Sept 21-22nd

Boy what a action packed month it has been for me. Things happened literally
by the hour. It all over lapped with the WRIISC exams and studies that went
on and on. First there were 17 video conferences, and then more kept being
added on. This time, TBI came up, and caught me by surprise. So the whole
thing shifted on me.

I had just gotten my ham license upgrade to General. Then applied for the
RACES ham emergency management system. Got on the ham air, attended a
few ham net meetings. Fixed a vast number of technical problems on my end
pretty much alone. Then kept moving onto APRS and other systems. Found
the area is a wasteland more than I knew. New task for this. New plan.

Locally, Im not allowed to comment for now. Not going to interfere with the
people investigating. Lets just say others went too far, and now they have a
very unwanted form of attention. They didnt know when to stop.

The WRIISC was comparing notes from 2008 to 2022 and found that I was not
degenerating like I thought. But, way too much emphasis was put once more
on psychology and PTSD. The test were highly biased with trick question
designed to make a person fall into 1 of 5 categories - all meant to be some
form of personality disorder. Like about 10 hours of this which I felt was obsessive
and needless. You cant tell a agenda is still here and deployment health is
still using its grudge match to condemn Gulf war vets.

All said and done I managed to use this exam cluster to my advantage despite
the way it was handled. Ruled out so many things. Positive I made a lasting
impression on most of these folks. As for Dr. Barrett, his build up to the final
comments was a huge let down. Gave the impression we were going to
change my world, and maybe a benefits increase. Then he fell flat on me and
bet the farm on PTSD. Nothing changed for me, and nothing will if I follow his
methods. But, not counting on him and not worried about it. VA isnt serious
about helping me and pushing me into the PTSD hole ties my hands as a
personality disorder. Willed myself sick. Grounds for dismissal of other
physical disorders. Somatic. This hasnt changed for 2 decades now. 3.317
fails at this one as well.

The coming RAC meeting is no better, VA gutted them once more but left
the chairman in place to decimate further. His double speak and back handed
methods have done just what VA wanted him to do. Keep people guessing and
spinning in place. Meetings get bigger and people assume they are being heard.
Unless its research, not enough looked at. Neither is the chat bar they all assume
is being recorded. Im the only one doing that. These meetings would not be so
bad if they were in person. Then these folks could not get away with all this.
The exceptionally rude and condescending committee could not get away with
this in public rather than hiding online. Just what VA wants.

Im kicking ass all over the place. To a silent audience. As no one helps no one
is the real montra here. 2 wrongs make a right, cancel out reality. Sooner or
later reality will set in and then some light is going to get shed on a bunch
of hidden issues that need airing out. When dishonesty back fires on all and
the hole backs up under them. I can wait, I see it coming.

All year long Ive systematically tackled the Gulf war system from scratch and
found it still designed to fail. From the Gulf war Registry exam, burn pit registry.
WRIISC referral process, WRIISC exam system, and how VA handled me from
the top down in all this. Including the cowardly Sec of VA McDonough trying to
avoid direct interaction with me all year long. Oh, you can email him alright -
he just hides in his office. His staff certainly do the same. Nothing like past
Secretaries of VA Ive interacted with. Not a short list either.

These people are as dishonest as they can get. So that means the RAC meeting
on the 21st and 22nd is going to be so blatant it will defy logic. The chairman and
staff will put on there rose colored glasses and pretend people like me dont exist.
Which other shameful so called advocates have tried to cash in on that. A perfect
dynamic for VA to remain static. Distant, off the mark.

Just like with the PACT act, a end of life benefits program. This is a terrible law
that VA plans to abuse as if its magic. Its really to help the terminally ill leave
benefits to there spouses and children. Of course they jumped on this because
it really didnt change he presumption models. The diagnoses part and ICD 9.
The misisng part is quality of life for those that arent terminal yet.

Im going through the motions here by the book, and VA is failing me on simple
stuff. If its failing me and Im very well versed, then its really failing others that
dont know what to ask or how. VA loves this part, saving money at the expense
of veterans lives. How many died this year due to this? We wont know, there is
no monitoring or reporting this for real. If it wasnt in VA care than it didnt happen
and they dont report that. 92% cant get it. VA wins. All is well.

The show down with VA over all this is when, not if. The severity of this grows
with each passing week. Im still here, I didnt vanish. VA and the secretary of
VA would love if I did. Cowards.

August 14th, 2022

Pact Act, and A government spiraling out of control

It all kind of came together watching Congress deal with Trump, just how
openly dishonest America has become. How each side knew what the other
was doing in Washington DC, and how far the abuses went. Just how far
national security has only become a tool of the rich to cover up there tracks.
Then when there fellow billionaires dont like it, turn on each other.

How can I possible get the Gulf war records released when a hand full of
very crooked people control our countries darkest secrets unopposed. As
each President since 1990 knows what is hidden at NARA. They have to
cover it up, or risk exposure. Just like Trump hinted at 911 once the heat
was on him. Give the Bush family a black eye. Detract from him.

Then I watched the Pact Act in play. Congress tried to kill it just like it tried
to kill PL105-368 in 1997. The irony is, this is a toothless law that really wont
grant very many service connections. Which is why VA is embracing it now
like it "always' endorsed it? OMB and others in VA picked its weak points
apart and already plan to stall like they did with Gulf War vets. To minimize
payouts, care, and the actual veteran that need it the most. Figure about
less than 5% even getting anything out of this, and 30% rating or less.

The new trick with VA is to poison the research aspect of this, and redirect
the funds to other projects like they did with the WRIISC. In about 5 years
people will see this when its too late. Because, VA does not have to publish
where the money actually goes. No accountability.

Ive cut the rest of Gulflink off. Might as well. Veterans wont rally, and VA is
not accountable to Congress or the vets. Pact Act was a bone to lull these
people back to sleep. Its NOT a victory. Its not sweeping, and filled with
loop holes. Ive been at this 25 years, and Ive seen it up close most of that.
Clerk of the house, and HVAC didnt even warn these folks.

Well, come October is the great credit card defaults of all those people who
lived on credit most of the last 2 years. Bled dry by the rich, live for today
as its all going back to normal next week? Keep spending. Its wiped out
the poor who now have maxed out. The damage is too great, and trillions
in derivatives will vanish over night as the banks go into margin call. Then
China and Russia will make there moves in the chaos.

Im surrounded by idiots. Watching them tug at a very fragile thread in a
dozen directions. Powerless, and having to brace for the obvious. What
could I possible know, Im just a poor dumb vet. I have no value to anyone.
Just because Im not wealthy, and ruthless?

Simple is better in all things. Living on so little. Keeping away from the
distractions, and empty promises. Go devalue yourselves. Im going to
focus on my plants, chickens, and ignore you all. America gutted itself,
and is a lost country. Its going to learn from its mistakes shortly. That
living on credit is a very bad idea. Inflating to infinity.

Good luck with all that people. Im scaling back and focus on common sense
stuff. As I know better on so very many levels, and Im done explaining them.
Go fake each other out. See where we all end up a year from now.
††††† Sincerely
††††† Kirt P. Love†
††††† Disabled Gulf War Veteran†
††††††††††††† Former member: VA Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans
††††† Contact: Kirt Love - ( Email updated April 5th 2020 )
†††††††††††††††††† P.O. Box 414,†
†††††††††††††††††† Crawford, Tx 76638

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